Lost in Emotions

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Treasure the present!

hi.. its been long....

sooo many things happened these few days, and i wasnt motivated enough to blog... but well.. here i am now... with the help of ULTIMATE ice blended, now i am ultimately awake!!

oh well....
1st of all, is the demise loss of a taiwanese actress xu wei lun... she passed away in a car accident... i was really affected by the news... shes only 28... young n prettyy with a whole bright future ahead of her... why muz her life end like this? i really wish she will juz wake up now and announced everything is a hoax... i wont blame her for the bad joke...

i dont wanna discuss more abt her... juz serve as a reminder to all of us that... today might be the last day of your life... pls be happy and live your life fully... and treasure every1 around u.. do take a close look at the people coz u never know if it maybe the last time u see him/her. And of course, be thankful that you are still up and well, sitting somewhere reading my blog! It is indeed a blessing!

Ok, next topic........ involved my workplace.... my big big boss... mr chin has resigned!!! it was announced yesterday, and with immediate effect... citing "personal reason" . but i dont really buy it... there must be something more to that! I wonder what is it... so currently.. my dept is headless! I wonder if they are contemplating promoting me to his seat.... ever heard of a contract staff heading a dept of regular? wahhahaa...
this may be it!!!

hmmmm... ok.. actually i have exaggerated..... nothing much happened these days.. except these 2 big news.. and some tiny mini news....

I dont know... but seems like my reputation in office has been smeared! juz now my boss was telling me... every1 said ak is my bf..... every1!!! bf!!! hope he is exaggerating lah... better not be every1!
imagine such an innocent and nice nice lady like me... being termed as the scandalous office affair lead actress (maybe called bitch??).... it just doesnt sound right! bitchy and jane juz doesnt rhyme! But well, i will just go with the flow... i believe the scandals are just harmless ones, created to kill time...

Yesterday, we were smsing at nite... and 1 of his message was " but tomolo i out station dear".
DEAR!!!!!
so i have been promoted from sweetie to dear eh???? whats next????

In the evening just now, he disturbed me again... well.... hes on business trip now. he sms to ask me if i have recovered fully now. its like.. 1 week ago affair... now then he ask? well.. he did ask me on monday.... maybe hes juz trying to create topic with me.... but i tell u... to strike when some1 is ill..... is damn lethal!

My wishlist

I know... my birthday is long over.. but still.. there are some things on my mind which i hope there are some kind angels out there who can fulfil my wish.. like.. maybe a santa claus?

1. Harry potter books... Suddenly, i wanna collect the whole series... actually i got the 1st book, but i lend to a friend and it has been gone from my life ever since then.. sigh... for me to buy it again... sounds silly.. but i guess i have no choice...
if only theres a kind soul out there.. who would donate harry potter books to me

2. ronan keating cd.... his best hits.. recently, i am crazy over 90s songs.. songs which accompany my teenagehood...

3. beauty and the beast, little mermaid, aladdin, toy story dvd

4. and if all else fail, give me $$$$$!!!

how i wish i have more friends... so i can get birthday presents from them all!

long weekend beckoning

yes.. im on MC today.... yes, really sick and need a good rest at home....
i am going to rest to the max today coz i guess i gotta hit town tomorrow....

oh well, since im at home... im glad the suay germs dun have much chance to attack me.. hence im still fine and well so far.....

just now... this ak sms me . his message was " hi sweetie, how r u today? hope u r feeling better now."

ya! rite! he addressed me as sweetie again! am i really that sweet??? I really dont know he is showing his fatherly love to me... or more than that.....

I have never came across a colleague who can be sooo nice to me... but then again.. what is his nickname? Aunty Killer... so is he so nice as usual... or something else? I really dont know....

what is he trying to do? is he trying to make me fall in love with him???? That easy meh?

Updates
I replied him 1 hour later that i am feeling better.. and i also said "hope my absence at work is bearable for you"

his reply: your absence at work is like a beach without the sun.

wooo...see what i meant??? his words can kill!!! and me being a 27 year-old-left-on-the-shelf-potential desporado.... have i been killed by him already?

come, sway/suay with me

Today is such an eventful day... or i should actually be more specific...
today is a suay day!! i cant believe sooo many bad things can happen to me in 1 day... today may be 1 of my suayest day in my life... i dont remember having so many things wrong in the same day..

here the story goes
I wear a new watch which i bought from hongkong. But i did not check whether it was working anot, assuming that it will work. Only when i was out of my house then i realised the bloody watch is not working! Damn! its a red betty boop watch.. looks quite chic! but sigh... i was thinking.. should i continue wearing it, as an accessory? or to remove?
then i decided to take off my watch, afraid people will laugh at me for failing to notice i got a broken watch.

And today i wear my new shoes which i bought from hk, and it hurts badly! i was having problem walking normally... argh....

With no watch on my wrist, i did not make good estimation of time. And bloody hell... today's train was like packed. I let about 4 trains passed me.... and when i finally looked at my hp for the time, i was shocked to see 8.28 when i was only at jurong east! Oh man... can i get to queenstown by 845????
No.. i only got there at 846... sigh.. hence.. need to take public bus to office... was so afraid that it will rain and drenching me is ok.... but.... pls dun drench my coach bag!!! lucky it was only drizzling... hence not much damages done to my bag. And ya... i was late for work, of course...

When i reached office... started my sneezing and running nose... yes.... i am falling sick.. well done!

As i was feeling so sianz, i dont wanna think about wat to wear.. hence i wore jeans...

Ak then asked me..."may i know why r u in jeans today?"
me: hmmm.... today not friday meh?
ak: today is friday?
me: no meh?
ak: wah... u very good... r u in sales? u wanna join sales?
me: u wanna hire me?
Anyway.. then he tell me im not supposed to wear jeans to work except friday... ok.. another blopper of the day.....

I wasnt having any appetite.. hence i did not go for lunch....

was sneezing and fluing so badly that my boss asked me to go see doc....

but i know going to doc doesnt help.. what i did is just a good rest.....

At 5pm..... i decided to go home... hence i msn my boss to tell him that i am going off now...
As ak was on the phone, i juz make a hand sign to him that i am going home already. He looked at his watch, and i gave him an impatient stare. coz i was thinking he was suaning me about going off so early.

then i walked out, to the bus stop....
when i got out, i suddenly feel much better.. i guess its the air con in my office which was killing me....
then.... ak called me.... and asked me where i am...
he wanna send me home! i was telling him.. nonono... no need.. im goin myself
he say "no.. i will send u home. u wait at the bus stop for me. bye!"

Then he came along.... he was saying that i must be so sick that i cant bear to stay for another hlaf hour.... ya.. he was thinking that i am soo sick hence decided to drive me home. so nice of him... mind u.. he stay in pasir ris.. and me.. bt batok... 1 east 1 west, and he was sooo nice to drive me home.. i was telling him juz drop me at mrt... but he rejected me...
ok.. so he sent me home... was so grateful to him for i was thinking about the pain i will have to go through with my walk home.. hes my saviour!

ooh.. guys really know this trick huh.. to hit women when they are sick..... somehow will be touched to a certain extent..

why is he so nice? i am puzzled.....

back.. for... good

i guess now is time, for me to give up
i feel it's time
got a picture of you beside me
got your XX mark still on your coffeecup

got a fist of pure emotion
got a head of shattered dreams
gotta leave it
gotta leave it all behind now

whatever i said
whatever i did
i didnt mean it
i just want you back for good
whenever i m wrong
just tell me the song
and i 'll sing it
you be right and understood
i want you back for good

unaware but underline
i figure out the story
it wasnt good
but in the corner of my mind
i celebrated glory
but that was not to be

in a twist of separation
you excel in being free
cant you find a little room inside for me?

Take That!

ok... i havent been blogging for some times (minus those copy n paste stuff).. and here i am again!
i had been too lazy to blog.....

i supposed i should start from last Saturday....
hmm.. attended a wedding dinner (my mama's friend son) and the damn dinner started at around 9pm! and i was bloody hungry by then... in my heart.... alittle bit of cursing going on, coz i was simply bored... stuck with aunties.. no1 to talk to.. no peanuts to chew on..... only a cup of chinese tea to kill my boredom... how sad can it be...

hence.. pls pls pls.... rem to start ur dinner ontime!!! dun be inconsiderate to early birds! we are innocent.. we shouldnt be punished! Or at least... provide some peanuts lah!! dun stingy leh!

Sunday.. marks the last day of my ZChen career as a DJ.. for the time being. The radio station he worked for (WAVE Radio). sigh my poor z... hes going back to msia for a break...
yea.... will be nearer to me.. hello my princeZ!!

ok... Monday.... i received 2 big presents!
1 from AK, 1 from my low b counterpart from HK!
AK gave me something wearing Christian Dior wrapper. Yes, it's wrapped up nicely, with CD ribbon somemore.
my heart was chanting: wallet! wallet!
but then.. the paper bag writes -cosmetics & fragrance
so it shouldnt be wallet... ok... then my heart start chanting "perfume! perfume!"
As he told me to unwrap it, hence i did it....he gave me a Christian Dior Make Up Palette... so paisay... dunno how much it costed him... well.... he shouldnt have......
i really wasnt expecting any presents from my colleagues...
and he said at 1st, he wanna get me something cute coz he knows i like cute stuff (yea... but... i think i have grown up liao.. no more cute stuff pls! ). then he got me this coz he tot im 21... turning into a woman... should give something more grown up...
geez.... and he really thought i am 21.... thanks to james man!

and my bonbon sent me a Lion King Collector DVD set!!! Thanks!!!! Add to my collection! Muacks!!! shes soooo sweet... juz like a bonbon... hehee

If you have not already know, i am goin for holiday soon again! In fact, 8-10 feb! going to phuket... why am i goin therE?
company trip!! incentive trip! hahaha well.. though phuket is not where i wanna go, but since its freee... why not right? but yea.. goin with the uncles.....
and my naughty boss... tat day when he found out that i am going, he jumped up and down! I am no kidding... he really jumped... then he continued by askin if he can be my roommate -_-.

then he go ask san if she found a roommate, and she answered: jane
mikey: no.. shes my roommate! u go find james
-_-

old man (to mikey): do u wanna sleep with me?
mikey: no... im sharing room with jane. you can share room with san.
-_-

this naughty fella! but then, thanks to him for fighting for us (the contractor right) that I get to go along too.... just hope i dunt get drunk and do silly things there..... hahaha else i maybe out of job soon!

The Day we find Love -- 911

A lomantic song here...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MEoaayCuOHQ&mode=related&search=


Isn't the first time won't be the last time

Don't you worry, I don't mean to make you sad
My tears will soon be over
With your conscience clear for a new life ahead
Don't be sorry, I really need to hear the truth
the only thing I'm asking, cause I need you to
Remember me as the only one who sets you free
Maybe time alone will make you see
How deep our love could be
No, it's never to late

Cause I know this isn't the first time
Won't be the last time
I surrender my soul casue you're always
keeping me waiting
Anticipating the day we find love once again

I won't give up while there's a glimmer of a chance
A dream that's never ending
Inviting love and a perfect romance
A burning passion, oh, baby, you're my destiny
But the message I'm receiving is you're through with me
But I'll be there

even though you tell me you don't care, no,no
How could you forget the times we shared
Don't throw our love away
You know it's never too late

Cause I know this isn't the first time
Won't be the last time
I surrender my soul casue you're always
keeping me waiting
Anticipating the day we find love once
, remember me as the only one who sets you free
Maybe time alone will make you see
how deep our love could be
No, it's never too late, no, no, no, no

Cause I know this isn't the first time
Won't be the last time
I surrender my soul casue you're always
keeping me waiting
Anticipating the day we find love once again

I miss boyzone

I am chatting with an old pal... a pal whom i known from my mambo times... so its like...27-18=? years... and we are relishing the old songs...
it started when he showed me "back for good" mv...
i realised good old songs are still the best...
hence i went to dig out my Take That Cd... thank god it is still around... the songs are great... so nolstagic.....

and not to forget.. boyzone... dun love me for fun girl.. let me be the 1 girl... love me for a reason.. let the reason be love

oh i miss those boyband days! Look at my pic with Ronan Keating! Yea... the days when he was still in Boyzone... and pls excuse my ugliness.. last time young... hence ugly mah....:P I used to keep this pic in my wallet... those silly ole times... ehehhe

I Dont Wanna Miss A Thing

This song was featured in the movie "Armegaddon" and performed by Aerosmith. I love this song! Heard it this morning on my Z show.... lovely song... 1 of my all time fave... heres the beautiful lyrics..
(Accompanying this song is a watch.. my golden disney watch... indicating.. time is precious.. if u dun wanna miss a thing, we need to treasure every single second of our life)


I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming

I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever

Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna miss a thing

A Whole New World

From the movie *Aladdin*

I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide?

I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming
A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world with you
Now I'm in a whole new world with you

Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky

A whole new world
Don't you dare close your eyes
A hundred thousand things to see
Hold your breath - it gets better
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back to where I used to be

A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment red-letter
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you

A whole new world
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me

Lovely Friday!

Exciting!!!
Rain is in Singapore right now!!! Geezz... the hunk!! the hunk is here!
Was watching news about his arrival... he look soooo suave.... and cute.. n cool.. and charming.. and handsome..... oh man.. i wish i can juz have a glance of him...
he was at jewel box juz now for press conference... and its like... quite near my workplace!!! geezzz... if i know.. i would have climbed mt faber to see him man!!!! hes cute!!!

Should I go catch his concert and have a glimpse of his sexy body?????

opps... i better not think aloud anymore....

ok.... back to my normal life....
this morning, went back office (yawn) and checked email. Oh no! James emailed the whole team abt my bday... and even told those who are overseas to buy presents for me... he wrote... jane is expecting big presents from....a...b....c.....

oh man! so paisay!
as usual... this ak... with his hiaoness replied all... that he is sending me a big fat flying kiss!
arrrggghhh....
i tried to play down his msg by saying that i havent receive the kiss.. probably received by my neighbour... hahaah

mikey asked if i wan a HP diary book... and i guessed.. thats my bday present~ wahahahaha
then old man said.... " i look through my desk for any brand new things... and the only brand new thing i found is a box of panadol"
-_-

got a present from san... a chio red hp pouch....
and james bought me lunch @ Spizza....
and whoever walked by, james or mikey will tell the person to wish me happy birthday
hahaha.. crappy fellas...
this quite big shot (who used to be their boss) came over... and they ask him to wish me happy bday
he was quick...
"happy birthday. wheres the bday treat?"
then ximen came... and also wished me happy bday.... n blah blah blah.. shes only 21!! blah blah blah.... i asked him wheres my present
he think for some times , then james said... give cigarette lah
me: i dont smoke
ximen: nvm.. u can always learn
me: pengz

then tarzan came to wish me happy bday too... was quite shocked that hes sooo "frenly" ar.. hehee
then i asked him again... where is my present?
he leaned forward and wana kiss me
of coz... fake action lah
then i screamed (softly); and my colleagues were alerted. james stood up and asked.. what happened? he kiss u ar?
then my boss said... u cant anyhow kiss her.. muz ask for permission from many people u know...

yea.... they made a big fuss out of my bday....when i intend to maintain low profile.. but cant....
guess im too cute to be ignored....

i would like to thank.....

This is usually the phrase used when people are receiving awards....

Well.. for me... its like.... im receiving award for being able to breath oxygen for 27 years... im much much luckier than many people who may not have the chance to live to such a ripe old age... i mean.. its 27 years on earth.... and im still intact with my legs n hands.... aint i lucky???

ok.. enough of crapping (must be the amount of snow crabs(crap?) that i had consumed last nite...)

Ok.. i shall take this chance to thank every1 who has wished me happy birthday.... (in choronological order, i will try)

1. Peiwen... my sec sch fren... she left me a friendster message wishing me happy birthday last week! thats so sweet of her , coz honestly, we havent been keepin in touch for quite some times
2. Phoebe... she left me a friendster happy birthday greetings too!
3. Yvon... wishing me happy birthday in advance, and kept wanting to pass me pressie... but.. somehow... i failed her....
4. Esther... 1 of my latest collection of good friends... juz knew her when i joined my previous company, and somehow we managed to hit offf... even to the extent of goin hk together... and shes the 1 who gave me my 1st bday pressie.. a cute white fluffy lamb soft toy
5. Ah choo.... Esther friend... who plays a part in the soft fluffy toy too! Thx!!
6. Huisan... my buddy! whom we ate like theres no tomorrow yesterday at kushinbo! yes.. its like my last meal of my 26 years on earth.... "chi bao bao... hao shang lu". ah choy!!!! but yes... we had a great time stuffing ourselves silly.... :P
7. Adrian... thx
8. My bestmate! though we are supposed to meet yesterday, and he flew my kite, and made me carry the stuff around the island..... but i still forgive him....
coz he did a mini countdown for me! he observed 1 min of silence too... thx bestmate! nex time dun dua me again! :D
9. Zhiwei... though hes crude... but i have to forgive him... he did wish me happy birthday afterall
10. Carel... who sent me a birthday sms at the strike of 12mn!!! shes sooo sweeet!!!
11. Regina... who send me sms at 12.02... sweet too! thx!
12. Irene... thx for the sms
13. Steven... thx for the sms... and no... i did not take mc... its a brave leave for me!
14. Gerald... thx for sms
15. Xiaoqin... my oldest buddy! thx for sms..... we shall go out for a meal soon!
16. Joelyn... thx for the sms.... hope u can find "beauty and the beast" for me! :D
17. Chris... thx!!! Im overjoyed that u remembered my birthday!! hehehe... Cheers!!
18. Eugene.. thx for the sms...
19. MeiZhen... my long lost primary school friend.... thx for the greetings
20. Ben... thx for the greetings.... u said u owe me pressie hor....
21. Bonbon... thx for the greeting all the way from HK!!! hehee im stil waiting for the surprise!
21. Anna.. thx for the creative messages... u never understand what it is like to be so old...

I hope i mentioned every1 im supposed to.... (pls forgive me if i did not mention ur name?
maybe u can greet me again so that i can add ur name to the dean list!)

Last, but not least... have to thank my mama... for giving birth to me... taking good care of me... and tolerating my occasional temper flare at her.... shes my closest person on earth, hence sometimes i may take it out on her... but i really love her alot!!! And also not to forget.. every year.. without fail, she will cook mee sua for me on my birthday... so that i will have a long life... hahaha.. sure... i hope i can still eat the mee sua for many many years to come!
my papa.. for providing for me... doting on me.... and being the man of the family
my bro... for not killing me when we were young and allowing me to breath more air for a longer time... hehehe... nay... hes a company to me... i guess without him, my childhood will be so boring....

And also.... Jay chou! for being born on the same day as me! I know there r much more people who are in celebration mood today... though its for jay chou... but.... come on!!! lets celebrate together!!!

Cheers lah!!!

Happy Birthday Sweetie!

Today marks the eve of a Major day.... the 18th Jan....
but somehow.. i am fed with sad stories today... what a way to end the year....

received news that my ex colleague hubby passed away in his sleep... he is stil a young chap... and they had juz a baby who is at most... 2 years old? I feel so sad for them...
imagine 1 day.. u wake up... and the hubby who is beside u juz dun wake up anymore... it will be ultra shocking...
i think i will go mad if this happens to me...
hope not... hope the trend of our healthy young men who died in the sleep will quickly pass...

had some sad conversations with a couple of people too.... sigh.. as u grow old... problems grow too.....
bless the world!

ok... this should not be a sad blog... lets talk abt happier stuff......
like.... i received a white lamb soft toy as present....? and thats all?
i was going to meet my bestmate.... and he sabo me....
went kushinbo for the dinner buffet.. and stuffed myself silly with lotsa food... my stomach had been expanded to the max juz now... and still feeling the aftermath now.... yucks!

argh!!! im sorry but theres no happy things for me to blog...
okok.. theres 1... which is... im on leave tomorrow.. no need to wake up early.. yipeee!

26 years of life

As I progress to my 27th year on planet earth, i have decided to write a little story about myself... a life summary... of what happened for the past 26 years... and with hopes that the future years will only get better and better!

on 18th Jan 1980 at about 9pm, a baby girl was born to a couple. it was their 2nd kid, elder being a brother who is older than the girl by 3 years. The baby girl was named Jane by her mama coz her mama had a colleague by the name of Jane who happened to be pretty. Hence then name... with the hope that this very jane will turn out to be even better than the senior jane.
jane is a funny baby. She doesnt cry when nurses gave her jab. Her mama was very amused by this child. Why does she not cry when there is pain? Is she... retarded??? haha and this jane is such a baddy... everytime the papa visit her in hospital... she will be sleeping soundly...

Seriously, i have no memories of what happened between the age of 1-4. Those stories are told by my mama.
I was a playmate for my bro.... and my stupid bro forbid my mama to buy any skirts for me. In short, he wants me to be his brother! He will cry and make a big fuss if my mama buy any dresses or skirts for me. Well.. thats how childish he is...

I was never a childish kid, right from the beginning. I am a kid who cant wait to go to school. When my bro 1st attended school, he was crying his lung out. he was afraid to be left alone in school... and he didnt like to study at all...
whereas, i was envious of my bro.... to be able to go school....

hence u can imagine my happiness when its time for K1! Yes... the mark of ..... adulthood... i finally can read books! I was very excited about school... and happily went to school, and read all i can.

I remembered i was such a bookworm since young. My very 1st storybook (or at least the 1st 1 i remembered) was Cinderella. And once, i had a fight with my bro, and he revenged by tearing my fave cinderella book. I cried when i learnt about that... somehow... some1 (cant remember who) scotchtaped the pages back. Thats how nasty n immature my bro is! I was always the kind one who got bullied, but i still love my bro alot...

due to my bro's silliness, he always got caned and punished. I still remember... my mama sometimes made him kneel down and pull his ears as punishment. I will sympathise with him, and "kua chwee" for him. When my mama is away, i will quickly inform my bro to stand up, and when shes back, i will alert him. See... im such a kind little girl... who grew up to be a kind lady too! :P

When I was young, I was an ambitious lil girl. I wanna top the class! but somehow... i did not managed to.... If i remember correctly, prizes are given to the top 5 students. I was the no. 6.. hence there goes my prize. I was only in K1... and I got so upset that I cried and refused to eat.... (sigh.. if only i am half as ambitious now... ).
Hence... K2... i worked hard... and yes... finally gotten the prize (of a file and some story books.. haha.. wat nice prizes)

Then we shifted to my current house when I started primary one.
I was still as motivated and was always among the top 5 students of the class... i guess i am cursed against no.1 ... i never managed to top no matter how hard i tried...
primary 2 was my glorious year... ahem.... i got 3rd in english out of the whole primary 2 cohort, and my standard was 4th or 5th (dont remember) of the whole cohort leh!!! I won hundreds of kiddos...... i was really happy.....

primary 3... start to slack abit...... but stil managed to get into the 1st class in primary 4-6.

In primary 4, i got to know 1 of my best friend, XQ. She was a naughty girl, and somehow misled me to not so siao on studying. But no discredits to her... coz til now.. shes stil 1 of my best friends! Imagine.. since primary 4... 17 years of friendship.. what can beat that? I am so glad that we are still very much in contact. In fact, yesterday she juz sms to ask me out to celeb my birthday... thats how sweet my friends can be....

Somehow lost my passion of studying... but stil was hoping to go to a good school with xq...
But.... I got into the school of my 6th (last!) choice... and was very pissed... coz to me.. its a bloody lousy school and a person of my calibre shouldnt even appear there.....

tried to get a school transfer.. but didnt managed to... hence...accepted fate and started school at this bengish school. Start to know those beng n lians... hahaa not really lah....

i remembered last time got this group of girls... who are interested to know me... ( and later on.. they became chao ah lian and got into fights... lucky i never accepted their frienship!) and this silly classmate of mine.... who was interested in me...

At tat point of time, i was still a shy girl who is very resistant towards L-O-V-E. Hence i showed him black face when he tried to get near me. Once, i think he was being challenged by his friends to say "i love u" to me... and he really did tat! Oh my god! I was sooo embarrassed!

Sec 1 was quite fun! coz all are siao kias like tis... the whole class pretty much hang out together...
I remembered i was having a crush on a senior... hes juz an ah beng, and hes not handsome! but somehow.. im attracted to him.. hahaha... yea... maybe i got.... weird taste...
i wondered how is he now!
Then my school shifted to the present location. then we went sec 2...
i was buddy buddy with 2 girls... and both of them were seeking so much of my attention to the extent that 1 wil get jealous of the other if i am too close to either 1 of them. Yes.. childish but true... thats how desirable i am.
1 day... Girl A gave me a bus ticket... and Girl B threw the bus ticket away. Ever since that day, they did not talk to each other... and i was being forced to make a decision. I can only choose to be with 1 of them..... Eventually... i chose yunyi, my current good friend. I guess its not such a bad decision afterall.. coz look at our friendship... 14 years and still counting! Though now we dun meet up often, i know im in her heart, and likewise, she is in my heart.

Then we went on to established our clique... and my clique consist of 4 girls... who like to go crazy over boybands.. like.. Take That, Boyzone.
I was a crazy fan that time. Every1 like Take That, but i am THE ONE who managed to go to their concert. My papa doted me alot and willing to spend $ on such thing for me...
I was the envy of the girls in my class... hehee

Then... take that fever went away, and Boyzone fever came along. I was totally in love with Ronan Keating... to the extent i call myself.. Mrs Keating! hahaha... i managed to catch them the few times they came singapore... in fact, i managed to take a pic with ronan.....
and guess what? my 1st kiss was in fact.. given to Ronan! i mean... who has the honours to give their 1st kiss to a big star??? Who else but... me!

Anyway, i love some teachers... and my fave being mr tan.. my form teacher for sec 3/4 (dont remember also! hehe)
we nicknamed him gagameow (as in smurf) but i dont really remember why. He is a kind guy who can be serious and fun at the same time. He was always catching yunyi and me talking... and he called us "the twin"...

He is still teaching and sometimes i will still see him around... and will ask him still remember me anot?
he will say.. yes... wheres ur other twin?
Hahaha... i wonder if he find it amusing... last time... i was stil dorned in the blue n white sch uniform, with a pair of spec and always talking to yunyi.. and now.. im such a grown up woman... i wonder if he felt some achievement... but he still look the same.. still as cute!

Oh ya.. still remembered once.... and the very 1st time i failed a test . Maths test. i was devastated... coz its my 1st time failing and i was even the class lowest scoring fella. I couldnt take it, and cried in front of my friends... And it ignited the ambitious streak in me again. And guess what.. the next test, i was the top scorer... hahaha such extremes.....

Then O level comes... and go....

Went to my JC... and thats when life begins..... i was introduced to a happening lifestyle... coz my jc is quite havoc.... I was being thrown into a class of "rejects". hahaha.. as in... my class is very rojak... and was considered the "problematic" class... but of coz.. im 1 of the goody students in the class... but however goody i am, eventually i gave way to vice...
i dont do my homework
i copy the tutorials
i skip classes
bad results... always wavering between pass and fail... but.. i dont care... coz its like... as long as i pass.. can liao... yea.. that was the mentality.
Anyway, i was busy checking out guys that time. Once again (yawns), i got a crush on a senior.. KT. Well.. i must say.. throughout my life, he is the best lookin dude on my crush list! hahaha hes handsome, cute and rich...
(to be continued)
I am tired liao lah!

Landslides in Bukit Batok!

oh my god!! Finally some1 discovered it and reported in news....

The Kite Runner... Best!

Just finished reading a book -The Kite Runner (by Khaled Hosseini).
I give it 3 thumbs up! though i only have 2 thumbs.. who wanna borrow me a thumb????

Anyway.. i think its a really interesting and moving book... As you would have know... im not a fast reader, and will usually takes quite awhile to finish a book. but i finish tis book within.... 5 days? It juz make me wanna read n read.... even in the morning train when my eyes is like... still sleepy....

his writing is brillant.. and the storyline is good.. i really enjoy this book! though im not telling you the story, else spoil the excitement....

anyway, conclusion... i am glad i am living in the peaceful singapore... and i think all of us, singaporean, should be glad about that... so stop complaining about every lil things!

Go read this book!!!!

The Kite Runner... Best!

Just finished reading a book -The Kite Runner (by Khaled Hosseini).
I give it 3 thumbs up! though i only have 2 thumbs.. who wanna borrow me a thumb????

Anyway.. i think its a really interesting and moving book... As you would have know... im not a fast reader, and will usually takes quite awhile to finish a book. but i finish tis book within.... 5 days? It juz make me wanna read n read.... even in the morning train when my eyes is like... still sleepy....

his writing is brillant.. and the storyline is good.. i really enjoy this book! though im not telling you the story, else spoil the excitement....

anyway, conclusion... i am glad i am living in the peaceful singapore... and i think all of us, singaporean, should be glad about that... so stop complaining about every lil things!

Go read this book!!!!

it's a good good day!

its lunchtime again! and look at the time! its only 1.23pm and im already warming up my seat liao... damnz.... i wonder when then can i be less committed to my work!!

ok.....

the truth is....
i went canteen for lunch lah.... was actually praying hard to go out.. but.. nay... my prayers not answered... hence.. canteen.

Lucky it was not quite a bad lunch... with the joke machine... old man.. and divorceee.....

anyway... i ordered lasagne and the bird sized brain me.... never even go think abt what meat is inside...
i ate... then.. hmmm.. taste like beef... look like beef.....

then i asked divorcee to taste for me...
shucks! its really beef!!!
damn!!! pls 4give me for the few pieces of beef... it was really pure accident... plus some of my pure stupidness....

then i exchanged with him....
oh did i forget to mentioned...... *yawn*... he paid for my lunch again!
damn... 3 days of free lunch..... do i really look that poor to afford lunch? but anyway... juz now i did buy them coffee... spinelli coffee... not cheap lah ok??? so... im not so poor looking afterall! :P

as usual... this cranky old man managed to tickle my funny bones...
i went to order kopi with divorcee.. then old man said he wan kopi black
then when the kopi is ready... he told james to get him some milk
james: i thought just now u said u wan coffee black?
old man: i changed my mind
then james go tell the staff : get the old man some milk

wahahahahhahaa

then when james brought back the milk n gave old man
he said: i changed my mind again
wahahahahaha then james said.... thats the sign of old man...
old man: no.. im juz fickle minded
wahahhahaha

then we were having lunch with 2 other relatively new colleagues (from indo and Korea).. and they were like ask to guess how old each 1 is.....
then when they goin to guess old man's age, james go point at his hair, and made a hand sign of "50"... wahahhahaa so naughty of him!

Anyway, yours truly, i.e. me, is in a beautiful mood today.... i feel like dancing and singing!!!
yesterday was good.... morning was good! :)

its a good good day!!

lunchtime humour

today... had lunch with mikey and old man and san...
as usual... *yawn*... free lunch AGAIN!

may i add... FREE lunch *BUFFET*

anyway.. the main point are the funny things old man said....

1. he said his relatives always ask him during wedding dinners "when is your turn?"
hence... during funerals, he will ask back "when is your turn?"

wahahhahaa.

2. he said he went bangkok to buy some special fish tank.... and mikey asked him how he carry it back
his reply: carefully

wahahahahahahahahaha

3. my boss said old man is a funny guy
old man: i can be funnier... come.. push me to the limit

wahhaha

hmmmm.. yea.. he said some other stuff... but i cant recall.... yawnz.. muz b the prawns and siew mai which is taking up the memory space of my tiny brain...

ok.. til then..... signing off ! ciao!

welcome home!

my pc is back!!!!! once again.. i can blog at my own leisure time.. yahooo!!!
arent u as happy as me???
i mean..... u got blog to read what.. not happy meh??

anyway... my pc verdict.. the heart disk crashed.. and my os corrupted... hence.... the hospitalisation.

ok.. so its back to the normal blogging... telling u about my life.. blah blah blah.....

where shall i start?
yesterday... was like... the real day when we start the REAL work... as in.. reality sets in.. its time to work hard for 2007... hence.. me feel damn sianz... its like.... no more excuses of holiday season liao.. its a brand new year! 2007!!!!

and hmmmm... yest the bosses having meeting..... hence went lunch with AK. he brought me to this ulu kopitiam for lor mee again.. this is our 2nd time there...

the 1st time we went, it was raining, and the stall owner lent us the umbrella.... few months later, we are back! and ak bought a new umbrella for her.. as a appreciation gesture...
the stall owner was so happy.. though she kept saying no need no need....
this ak really know how to "zhou lang" hor!

but guess he muz be feeling sooo comfortable with me... that he think i dont mind him smoking at the table... hence he whipped out his cigarette and asked if i mind? of coz.. i said i dun mind... and strangely.. his cigarette doesnt stink so much.... and he blew all the smoke in other directions...

then when we went back to office, we talked about the orchid in our office...
u see... this smart alec (from vietnam) go order pots of orchid for every1 in office.. hence now every1 is burdened with the task to take care of the orchid...
then we decided that we should water the orchid... hence we proceed to water the orchids....

then this fella(ak's friend) walked past us and saw us watering (me holding the flower while ak sprinkle the water on the flowers)

then he said " you all couple ar?"

wah.. stunned! I dont know what to reply hence i kept quiet and smiled... and tis ak quickly said.. ya.... flower couple..

today.... ak went bkk in the evening, hence he only came in for the morning half.... he wunt be around til next week... i will miss his presence! hahaha

then he left.... and return.. coz he forgot something
then old man asked him why is he back
he actually said :coz i wanna take another look at jane before i go
Opps!!!! i quickly added: dun say so loud lah
wahahahha he damn hiao hor!!!
then b4 he left.. i asked him.. will u be coming back again (was thinking.. maybe he will come back 2ndtime! haha)
he said: no... i wunt be coming back for dinner tonite... tonite need to do entertaining

its soooo typical line from our channel 8 drama shows!!! from those unfaithful hubby ... and he delivered it sooo smoothly... the line really matches him man!!! i believe he always use this line! hahaha
nan ren........

damn... i wonder if im inviting gossips about me and ak man....

that day when we went lunch together with ali, Ak was very attentive to me.. like helping me get stuff... moving the water away from me so i can eat comfortably... and i could see Ali looking with that glint in his eyes.... then i tried to act indifferent....

hence... am i the bitch of SEA team?????

p/s: by the way, today is Ali birthday... happy birthday big boss! hes a capricorn too! just like me... the capable, reliable and steady capris! hehehee not to forget... the workaholic capri!

goofish rapist!

If u ever think goofy is an innocent blur dog.. look at my pic again!!

look at what the dog is doing to me! he is tryin to rape me!!!!

Gosh!!!!!

my old pal

Just now, I received an sms from my friend... a friend whom i have lost contact for long..... he ask me " how r u jane?"

Let me think... i think i know him since i was 18.. or 19? was i stil in jc when i know him? Maybe.. i cant really recall... but i remembered that we studied together for our exams...

he was a net friend, and when i met him, i was relief.. coz many net friends turned out to be disappointing. Though hes not a hunk, but hes not bad.. quite a cute and tall guy who is quite gentlemen. hes quite a silly kind of guy... at that time lah.. i think he had changed already.

What I admire about him is that he took up lotsa courses to upgrade himself. hes 1 year older than me only and he know that it is important to equipped oneself with more knowledge...

i remembered meeting him to study at PS macdonalds and maybe some other places i dunt remember now.

There was once also... his birthday and he invited me to his "party" at a ktv in katong. There was just a few people there actually. and he claimed its only for close friends. I told him i will be going but on that day, i dont feel like goin.. hence i asked if i can dun go. but he was insistent that i go, hence i really go. but i cant remember what present got for him. haha I think his friends were teasing me that I am some1 special to him hnce he invited me.

At that time, im not a ktv junkie and was really shy about singing in front of strangers. and also i was this english songs lady, hence i cant sing the songs.
I remembered i chose the song "truly madly deeply" (the savage garden song) to sing. but no.. i wasnt intenting to tell him im truly madly deeply lah.. just chose it coz its a nice song.
then his friends asked him to sing with me... so we sang...
then halfway thru the song... he suddenly blurted "i love you". but into the air.. it was soft, but loud enough to be heard by every1.
I was shocked and i believed i must have blushed badly, lucky the lighting is bad in the room!

but nay.. nothing happened for us... I guess romance was not on our cards... you yuan wu fen lah...
years later, he became a financial consultant. And he asked if he can practised on me. I dont know if hes true anot but i gave him the benefits of doubt and helped him. So he was like consulting me in front of his mentor. practise session. eventually i bought a policy from him. not that i am convinced by him.. but as a gesture to help him close 1 deal.
Then he left his company and joined another company but same job. Ever since then, we have stopped contacting each other.... And i have kinda forgotten about this friend of mine.

This new year, i received new year greeting sms from a number, which looks familiar... hence i replied asking who he is..
Leslie he replied....

And now i remember those sweet young days we had shared together. You see.,. as we grow up, we then to forget some friends along the way. This is kinda sad... I wished I can still keep in touch with all my firends.. from primary schools to the working people.. but its really quite hard.. and though my intention might be pure simplicity , who knows what others think..

But i am grateful to anyone who have left a footprint in my life ,... appreciate your presence!

Leslie, how r u??? Hope you are happy!

sunday breeze

i wasnt kidding when i said im an official disney fan now... every word i spurt out is damn serious... hence... look at my adorable (and pathetic collction)

1. Hunchback of the Notre Dame DVD!

2. Tarzan... (yes... it says.. tarzan meet the beautiful Jane..:P)

3. Disney Soundtrack.... but i kinda get the wrong 1.... so lemming for the other.. magic of disney(with real human voice)!

and yes.... i wanna have lotsa n lotsa of disney shows! whaahhaa... u may think im crazy.. but i am really happy when i watch and own them....

this is the only activity which does not fall in line with my 2007 theme - saving $ for the future!

ok... i will go ez with the make ups n skincares... and try to make more $ along the way....

oh well.. its sunday again... and tmr is monday.. sigh.. another long week ahead.. and i promised myself last week that i will work hard this week.. so guan yin niang niang... pls give me the strength, the courage, the determination ... the....... to be hardworking!!!

Ok... beside the disney craze.. my contact lense has finished... my spec had broke.. my hair has grown....

thats all!

not online tonite

as i have considered seriously and after considerable discussion, i have decided.,...
not to bring my lappy home today
hence.. the title...

anyway... people are asking what i wan for my birthday... hehehehe
so i shall jot down here with hopes that these people read it... or somehow.. words get around about what i want.... or.... as a record so i can easily refer when people ask me...

1. disney shows....
as u know, i am now an official disney fans... hence i need to collect the shows....
i need...
a.beauty n the beast
b. cinderella
c. little mermaid
d. alice in wonderland
e. toy story 1 & 2
f. pocahontus
g. snow white
and any other titles.....
fyi i have gotten Tarzan and hunchback of notredame....

so come.... blast me with disneyland!!!!
*note* only authentic copies accepted!

ok.. if u think its not practical.... and too cheap....
how about perfume? my latest craze is stella mccartney in two peony... i simply love love the scent!!! but not sure whether it has been released in sgp already anot... i bought mine in hk.. a tiny 25ml cost me $58!!! smell soooo goood! who wanna smell me???? sniff sniff

hmmm.. what else do i need...? well.... books? dilbert books? but no weasel or principles... coz read b4.....
hmmm.. what else do i need? well... ang baos is very welcomed too......

anyway... i will love any presents from YOU!!! give it to me baby! uhuh! uhuh!

1st of 2007

guess what???
my lappy is being hospitalised... will be discharged 3 days later.. sigh.. and now.. i am using my office lappy....
well.. what happened? i dont know.. but seems like... the heart is down (heart=heart disk)

lucky it was stil under warranty., esle i would have to pay!

my resolution for 2007 is to be thrifty... and til now.. quite living to it.. spending as little as possible ! pls join me and encourage me!

today,... is the 1st day of work... i cant believe its back to work again.... sigh.....

mikey si sheng le... hence mc for 2 days...... hmmm.. he need a *good* rest... hehehe...

n that Ak attacked me again.. with choco and a tiny bear.... he said.. its for all the help that i have given him.... hmmm/.... i think he means.. and for all the future help i need from u.. hahahaha

hmmmmm
unofficially 27 liao... though my birthday not yet.. but coming *soon*!
soo fast.... i better buck up......
muz save more $
muz find the love of my life
muz work harder
muz love my family and friends more
what else?