working sucks!

This period, though its weekend, i never felt I got enough sleep....

Why??
World Cup lah!!!

watching the matches til 1am.. then waking up at 4 to watch ,etc.... where will I get enough rest??? Sighz...

Frankly speaking, I am exhausted.. but I cant miss the matches coz it only happen once every 4 years leh... I gotta treasure it....

Yesterday, Germany was great! At least their performance is consistently solid...

Arg sucked! Actually the magic only appeared once in Arg when they scored 6-0 against i-forgot-who. My confidence in them surged after watching the match. However the subsequent 2 matches, they are just normal. Their magic has dispersed.... And yes! They made me lose $ yesterday! The odds was damn bad.. but I was thinking... nvm.. its a sure-win buy.... though little.. but... nvm lah...
Who knows!!! They did not even win Mexico! Wah kaoz...... anger.... plus agony.. i woke up at 4 to watch losers play!

Now as I blogged, England is on with Ecuador. I am rooting for Ecuador... Frankly speaking, i was never an England fan.... Secretly hoping that Ecuador will win! Maybe its bcoz of Beckham... I really dont like him and I dunno whats the big fuss over him. Many gers go gaga over him.. but I dont find him handsome at all! Its all the packaging which makes him interesting... Thats all! There are more good looking dudes in worldcup man....
Beckham? Ha!

I did not bet tonite... coz.. the ball is round, and I am not confident of England... coz they are sot sot team also!
Later.. Portugal vs Holland. I am rooting for Portugal! As the days go, I began to like Portugal. cool Figo, their kanchiong coach, their jersey... I hope they will make it through! So I can see more of them...

Should I wake up later to watch the match? But i got work tomorrow! Sighz......

I hate working
I hate mondays....

$ for me, not u

Coming soon....
My mid year bonus! hahaha

But you.. yes... YOU!! dont u dare harbour any thoughts of getting any money from me.. no way!
Reasons
1. It's just a miserable sum
2. I got big plans
3. While I worked so hard, where were you???

Ok... Plans?
But sadly speaking, I can only choose 1 out of all... coz of the above reason 1.

a)buy new hp
b)buy new mp3 player
c)go for a trip
i. go catch my zchen in HK in July, and also, I can go shopping!
ii. bring my parents to cruise , provided there is some promo going on...
d) save the $ for rainy days????

Or.... will I be able to stay long enough to receive the bonus?????

hmmmm......
no comments!

ungrateful & ugly Singaporeans

Today.. read an article about the courtesy of Singaporean...
Or should I say... The lack of it????

Yes, I think Singaporean is a bunch of ungrateful fellows... well.... Not all maybe, but many many.....

The article said that he picked up something for this lady(or should I addressed her as B*tch) and the B did not look at him or even thank him.... She is taking it for granted... Damn rude man! she deserved a slap across her face!

Every morning, I could also see replay and replay of ugly Singaporean.. especially on train rides....
Those buggers who like to cut queue.. and they think they are being very smart by cutting short the time and getting ahead of other.... PUI lah !!! U r a disgrace!!!
This scene is especially evident at escalators... you see some good citizen will queue up and slowly wait for their turns to get on the escalator. But some buggers will be waiting(no.. they are not waiting, they are waiting for a chance to attack unsuspecting victims) to cut the queue.
At this point of time, when I see these buggers, I will follow closely to the person in front of me, leaving no room for the buggers to intercept my queue! Haha.. except when the bugger looks dangerous.
Then the next crime scene will be at the train door... Everyone will be fighting their way into the train. Worse is those who dont let those alighting passengers out and charge all the way!
Disgusting!

In the train, there would be some idiots who would lean against the pole.
Hello!!! The pole is for many many people to hold on to... not for u to rest ur butt on please!!
My trick: to irritate the idiot by causing discomfort to him/her, eg hold it near idiot, use my elbow to ACCIDENTALLY hit him.....

Also, there is this bus driver in my area. Every morning, he would greet the passengers good morning. Every single passenger.
How many responded to him?
I think 2 out of 10.
Yes, sometimes I am guilty of not responding to him also... but i will always try my best to smile and nod my head to him.
Come on, he is making such an effort and how could we not respond?
Despite the bad response, I seen him doing it for almost 1 year...
Last week, I took his bus again. He did not greet anybody! I was shocked! I think to myself "Is he sick .. or is he really sick of his unfeeling passengers?"
Franly speaking, I feel abit sad... We have forced him to stop his politeness...
This is how bad Singaporeans are...
I really hope we will all learn to be more gracious.....

Please.. if you are reading this, remember that courtesy begins with me, and if u want to be treated nice, treat others nice 1st!

Be polite
Be considerate
Be gracious

feverish with worldcup....yum yum

I think footballers are very sexy!
They are very manly... and they look sooo good when they are seriously playing....
and they look so heroic... when they are chasing for the ball....
n when they adorn their jerseys, they look sooo cool!
n their perky butts ......

oooozes......

Football is a MAN thing! I love football!

wahhahaha

Let me do a quotation here... (its totally unrelated to the above topic though)

A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty.
-Winston Churchill-

Appreciate difficulties
Embrace opportunities

excuses.....

I just finished reading a book called " the curious incident of a dog in the night-time". I think its a great book! very interesting that I kept wanting to read it, hence managed to finish it within 3 days... (though its a thin book:P)

Its abt this autistic boy... his thoughts... and the story begins with his neighbour's dog being murdered, hence he aim to resolve the mystery.. along the process, he discovered a deep dark secret and the murderer is some1 whom he never imagine.

It's good coz what went on in the boy's mind sounds so realistic.... I wonder if autistic ppl really think like this... actually... they are not different. In fact, they are very true to themselves. If they dont like it, they will show it. If you try to twist here n there, they wont respond to you. I think their thinking are pretty cool.... something which we "normal" people can learn from.....

u know.. how "normal" people are sometimes soo fake... and trying to be some1 else that they are not...
example, i got a colleague whom i discovered that he will always try to make excuses for all his actions. He will always try to cover up his acts with reasons... I dont like it...
Sometimes u gotta admit that you wan to disagree with something, and you dont need to explain everything with a reason...
Like currently, I am collecting money for my boss' fare well gift... and he being quite a stingy person, havent gave me the $. i know that if i dont chase him and when its over , he will say... hes too busy... why didnt i remind him? he could have given...
I knew thats what he will do... i hate to face it...I dont wan to deal with his excuses... so tmr... i am goin to ask him for the $! then theres no excuses which will make me roll my eyes...

Many people always try to cover their actions with excuses... there's no need.... if u think u did the rite thing, then juz do it... dont explain... dun think of 101 excuses ...

I must also remember to be brave enough to face all my actions and consequences.... excuses are a no-no... especially lame excuses.

Z is the best!

Our hard work are in the hands of my Z....
Look... those are the petitions that we have done for z.....

all his beloved fans from Taiwan, Malaysia, China, Hongkong, Japan and of coz... Singapore!

But... Singapore really has a low volume .. sighz... I tried my best..... But... its not the quantity that count.. its the quality!!!
I devoted my heart and soul to it.... right????

Go go go Z!!!!!

So far....

ajapan vs australia -5
Kr vs XXX 1.80x5=9 (+4)
brazil vs XXX 1.24x5=6.20(+1.20)
Germany vs Poland 1.32x5=6.60(+1.60)
Spain vs XX 1.68x5=8.40(+3.40)
Arg vs XXX 2.30x5=11.50(+6.50)
Holland vs XXX 1.68x5=8.40(+3.40)
Por vs XXX 1.80x5=9(+4)
Czech vs ghana -5
Italy vs USA 1.75x5=8.75(+3.75)
JP vs Croatia -5
France vs KR ????

Overall = 12.85

xxx=forgot the country

Note: I shall not buy any Jp match anymore.... always lose $!

I Love Arg

recently.. nothing much happening in my life...
except world cup.. and singapore pools!
hahahaa

world cup.. i am impressed by argentina... they are really good! its a joy to watch them play.......
i used to dislike the team... coz i think they all look like crook....
but after yesterday's match... i think they are really good! the best team of all the matches that i watched( which coincidentially is not many!)

Dun mess with Messi!!!

KR and ESP not bad too... but i am not as awed by them....

Por.. nearly make me... poor.. but in the end, they didnt fail me...think they r down on their luck!

Later.. Italy...3am! I need to wake up and watch later....

let this be a winning nite for me can?????

Z getting married???

There is a Z event in Malaysia...
Yes, of coz... I went for it!!!

the theme was "ZChen is getting married"
What the heck! and the bride is not me???
But i never believe it is true.. he got no gf.... how can he marry???
So i went ahead and have a look...
married or not.... i stil love him...

Arrived at the shopping centre with 2 of my good frens.. hs and xq...
Though I never been there before, but there is enough crowd for me to know where the thingy is....
Then he appeared!!! In all white...... Oh my princez!!!

He sang a few songs, then moved on to his next destination.. somewhere near the shopping, but its a closed door event for the fans who got the tix...

Ended up outside at a place looking like shophouse, outside a bridal shop...
There was a bride inside (with her face covered) and every1 was speculating that it is his bride....
then z sang 1 song
then he sang fang wo de zhen xin zai ni shou xin
and he was like wanna cry again
then when it ended, he stepped back.. and ended up near me!

I took the chance to give him a pat on the back... and flashed him a thumb up sign. he smiled at me. then i asked him... r u really getting married?
he just laughed it off.... and said no.....

then the host ask him to choose a few fans to take picture with
the 1st one he pointed at... ME!!!
then in the end... somehow, all fans took pic with him lah
but i was beside him...
then i secretly ask him
"R u actually getting married to a new company?"
he said... no... actually he is juz a spokesperson for the bridal shop
chey.......
then i commented.. no wonder..... u dun have gf...i was thinking.. how can u get married
then he turned to me and said.... if i can find a ger that i like, i will marry her....

Dee dee dee dee!
Dee dee dee dee!

Damn!!!!! my alarm sound!!!!!!
SHit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my dream was interrupted!
argh!!!!!
z was like so close to askin for my hand!!!!
sheeesh!!!!!!
i hate waking up early.....
*grumble*

its my life!

ok... I think enough abt world cup..
its time to talk abt MY life....

but before i continue.. let me say something 1st....

SPAIN scored 4 goals! Wow!!!! I won!!!!

Ok... back to my life.....
Today got a surprise email from my ex colleague. She used to be under me, but quitted last month.... Thought will be end of story....

Today got her email, and she asked me out for lunch...
I am very happy that she stil regard me as a friend...
In fact, I am the only person in my dept that she met up with since she quit....
I am glad that I gave such a "warm" feeling to even my subordinate that she is willing to keep in touch with... even though we have only worked together like for... 2 months?

Yes, I always maintain a friendly relationship with my staff, and i would like them to regard me as their level... and not their superior..
coz really, i am not after anything... just wanna get my work done and every1 is happy....
For myself, I would adopt the just do whatever you please but get your job done when you are in office.
1 of these days, muz get the delicious TP muffins for them as a treat....

Also, discovered... many ppl dislike heewan too! they dont have good opinion of her, and everytime they said that, I will say " I dont like her" with my guts....

Yes, I really dislike her and i dont see the point of hiding it... and also.. i dont wanna entertain her... we can just maintain the working relationship. Period.
It's not so much that I will die without the job....
U offend me... I quit! see who is the 1 suffering!
So... Heewan! U better stop laughing ok... coz everytime i hear your laughter, i feel like quitting!

Muahahahahaha

win lose or draw

human..... are really human...
just like... pigs are pigs

U see.. yesterday I won ABIT of $ from KR and BR... and everybody is shouting "Treat me! treat me!"
What abt the loss from my Nippon match????

To tell u the truth.. my overall winning is only 30 cent lor!!!! How to treat....

When people win... they will say treat treat
When I lose.. how come nobody say... let me share ur loss with u?

Come on... next time when I lose, tell me "Count me in!"

choices...

Oh man! Korea won!!!
I won too!!
Yeaa.... finally... but then... its not an overall win for me too... remember the loss incurred yesterday?
But at least... i won the kr match rite????
Muahahaa..

I muz comment.. the 2nd goal is beautiful... kr is quite gd.....phew.... lucky my suayness wasnt able to outshine them man... phew....

brazil.... shd i wake up at 3 to watch?
or maybe i shd wake up at 4.. watch 2nd half... at least 1 more hour of sleep for me...
or should i just sleep all the way...

been there! done that!

As i am watching the kr match... with my heart in my mouth again...
Kr is losing by 1 goal
my bet... KR win......
so.. afterall, i might lose my $5 again!!
When can I actually get lucky???

Anyway, i DID not wanna bet today... but due to 1 of my great friend, I have to sacrifice myself to queue up and buy.. and since I am there... why not I buy too??
See!!! I dont intend to buy 1... i think... God shouldnt punish me rite???

KR goaled!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1 more please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh... btw, i bought Brazil win too..... the odds is damn bad.. but.. its like... "Sure Win" thingy.... so why not let me $5 to expand to $6.40???
Yes!!! its a sure win match! and if I lose .... i really got nothing to say!
If i lose the Brazil match, I will ........ stop betting for 1 week!

anyway, the last season... I have betted many $5... and my loss was like abt $100++ imagine how many games i have to lose????

Been there... done that....
So, whats new?????
Its only once every 4 years!!

Go bet more!!!!!

pissed and suayed

shucks.. i was typing a long n interesting blog... and when i finished and happily wanna add the pic, all my messages got wiped out... damn... i am soooo suay!
the suay streak continues...

Anyway, i will just give u some brief summary of my original blog
1. subscribe world cup channel
2. can watch world cup peacefully coz my z has appeared on kangxi tonite
3. z is cute
4. bet on japan to win
5. lose
6. still suay after 4 years....
7. I rediscovered my cutie Japan goalie kawaguchi
8. was my jc idol, pasted a pic of him on my file last time
9. why am i stil so suay?
10. should i wake up to watch italy match?

i seriously think... all work should be halted.. or we should be entitled to world cup leave!
u know.. when ppl go give birth, they give them maternity leaves
they should really consider giving us worldcup leaves!!! why is there world cup when I cant watch??? is it fair? is there any point in showing?????

Warning to my system: Dont u dare wipe out my blog again!!!

as black as....

Guess what?
Yesterday... I dyed my hair black.... its damn black now... looks abit funny.. and I am not fair enough to carry off my super black hair...
so now... i gotta whiten myself! no more sun!!!

Anyway, I am back from a wedding dinner from my secondary school friend...
We used to be closed... til something happen........

I find it quite funny to see her wed! Last time we always used to suan her, etc coz she is such a nice target for suaning.. hahaha.. and now.. shes married!!!! fast man....

oh, upon seeing her wed.... I wonder when is my turn! Or will it actually come???
Geez.... I think.... afterall, yes... i do wanna marry!
I wanna be the envy of hundreds of people!
Ok... I guess its time to tear down my protective wall and start to fall in love again!!!

Men... where are u?? Come to me..............

May I Love Z?

There seems to be some chemistry between my Z and me!!
Look at the pic! I said something like (circled) that "相信全亞洲的每個角落都有人在跳晴天娃娃舞﹐所以明晚天氣一定好﹗"

And I was watching his concert, he said something like "无论你在世界的哪一个角落，我都感受的到" before singing "放我的真心在你手心"...
Tears was loitering in my eyes too....

Look!!! We said the same thing... 角落!
Either he read my message before his concert, or... we think the same thing!!!
Wow!!
No wonder people always say... GReat mind thinks alike!
Hahaha..

I felt moved as i was watching the concert... Many times, I could see that his eyes are watery, but he control it, else I think he will definately cry...
(Did he also see my sentence 祝皇上明天演出成功。。記得。。 不要哭哦﹗﹗

Why? Why does such a talented person faced with such unpleasant circumstances... speaking of voice, he win alot of other singers... lookwise, he looks not bad what.. i think better than some singers who made it big as well...

Is it his height???
I think, it is his luck...
his luck is not so good... i think i should really send him a good luck clover!

But nevermind my princezzz... I am with you no matter what... even if you open a curry rice shop, I will make sure i patronise ur shop!!!

Germany fan

Oh! Germany scores!!!!

I have always been a fan of Germany.... just like them....

Since that time.. I remembered I was in primary school, and the world cup fever was on.

I was on a bet with my classmate.. I stil remember he was rooting for Holland while my bet was on Germany. The stake was....... a slap on the palm!
Hahaha.. those were the days of a child....

And I won!!!!
Ever since then, I have been a fan of Germany....

THough I remember last season, Germany style of playing is quite boring... but Germany is a fave in my heart nevertheless....

Who will win this year's world cup????

Will the gambler come out? Remember last season, I lost abt hundreds on worldcup bettings... paikia ar?? kekeke....
No, I dont bet big... i bet the most is $10.... the problem is... I kept losing! Almost eveyr match....
in conclusion, you can say i am SUAY!!!

Frankly speaking, my hand is abit itchy now liao.....

OH!!!! sheesh.. costa rico scores........

Germany gogogo!!!
p/s: I like their black n white jersey... soo cool!

Some of my fave teams.... Germany, Italy, Brazil, Japan and Spain.
Cant wait to see the cute guys from Italy....
Cant wait to see the cool asian guys from Japan
Cant wait to see the salsa moves from Brazil...
Spain.. hmmm... cant wait to see their jerseys?

To give is a blessing...

Come to think of it...
I have always been a giver, rather than a taker....

If I like you, I will treat u very nice... and will give unconditionally....

Eg I dont mind giving out more than I receive IF I like you, coz I enjoy the feeling of giving. People say that Giving is more joyous than receiving...

It is true to some extent..

I got some temp staff who are working under me, and recently, most of them leave us coz they gotta start school soon... They have been a very good batch, especially 1 particular girl. I am really impressed by her work ethic.. despite she is juz a temp. Almost everyday, she will stay til 9 in office. Dont worry, she is not those chao kengster who wanna earn OT. She really work...
Today is her last day, I dont know if we can manage without her... but nevertheless, I really like her alot! Wishing her all the best in her studies!

Ok... back to the topic of giving and receiving.
Frankly speaking, I think I am very nice. Last week, 2 of my temp left. I actually went to buy some small gifts for them. Something unexpected from a SE.. But I really wanna show my appreciation to them.
If I am a temp who have been working quite hard, and when I left, my supervisor show her appreciation, I will be happy. I am applying the theory that "imagine u r in her school, how would you like to be treated?"
Today, 5 of them left... Likewise, i bought 5 bars of choco for them to thank them for all their hard work.... I would really like to buy a bigger gift for my fave ger... but I think it will be unfair, hence i got all of them the same choco....
Then when i pass to my fave ger, she told me she got something for me too!
I am sooo surprised... I never expect to get any gifts from them! Quite touched.. and sad to see them leaving.... All the best my beloved temps!!!

Every1, don be afraid to give. You may give more than u receive, but I tell u, the feeling is shiok as well...

Its Worldcup time! Ole Ole Ole!!!

marriage talks

sigh....

I blogged such an interesting view just now.
when I suddenly pressed delete...

The blog which took me abt 20 min of time, typed with full of my heart and soul... just gone within 2 seconds.........

This is fated lah... maybe god dont wan u to read my innermost feelings...
Well too bad!

But everything happened for a purpose. Being a 樂天派, I believe it is for a good cause.

I am too lazy to retype again....
Whatever will be, will be...

Good luck my princezzz

Today, my colleague intro me to this guy, a temp who will be going to Uni soon....
As i was talkin to him, I felt OLD!
What did i said to him?
"u shd relax more now, next time u no need scare no chance to work"

this advice is such an oldbird advice.... I remembered many years back, i got this advice too.. now, its my turn to say such thing! Geezzzzzz

Anyway, these few days, I havent been very happy. Everytime when I am alone and able to think, I will inevitably think about my poor Z.. I guess he is not feeling good now, just like me.
He is someone who seek security and stability. Right now, he is faced with a road of uncertainty. He is unsure what his future beholds him.. whether he will still be singing, or will he give up singing?
If he continue singing, will he be forced to lead another 5 years of torturous life (minus the singing and his dear fans part)?
If he stop singing, what is he gonna do? What abt his fans? Does he have to leave his strong loyal great fans?
Me?
I am torn between these 2 options too...

Yes, of course I wanna watch and have my ZChen for as long as I live! But, I dont want him to do all these unhappily. Really, I really wish that he wunt be so unhappy.
But if he stop singing, what about me?? What am i going to do without him?

You may think I am a lame obasan....But...
For the past years, he has become my lifestyle... my life partially revolves around him. Almost everyday, I gotta have a piece of him (eg listening to his songs every morning on my way to work.)
He who provide me with entertainment when I am bored, down or happy (I mean his songs)
He who wish me merry xmas, happy new year and happy birthday (which is even better than some of my so called friends)
He who appreciate what his fans has done for him
He who let me know some like-mind friends all over Asia

My colleague asked me when he heard me kept playing his songs..." U not sian ar?"
I told him.."No, i wont be sian 1"

Its true, I have never got tired of his songs, no matter how many hundreds of times I listened. It just grew more n more into me when I hear them....
I had also pasted a picture of him on my desk. Some people will come and ask who he is.. I will proudly introduce him... I am proud to be his fan!

I hope Z will take it easy and take things in his stride, happily. He should relax his mind and not think too much. Only when he learn to let go of some things, then will he attain happiness...

My wish - He to find a good company who is able to help him maximise his potential and able to provide him with a good life. Like this, I can still continue to enjoy more of him. I cant imagine life without my ZChen...

Please give your kindest word of encouragement to my prince @http://www.wretch.cc/guestbook/princezzz
or you can visit his blog and read what is on his mind, then u will understand why I stand by him so strongly
@http://www.wretch.cc/blog/princezzz
or look at his pictures, especially the ones on his childhood. I mean which artistes will be as true as him to post some not so nice pictures
@http://www.wretch.cc/album/princezzz

Let's all pray for him to find a wonderful company who can let him continue to shine even brighter....

痊癒

我躺在這裡昏睡到底過多久
被關在白色的宇宙
忘了那時雖的手
曾在我額頭遺留溫柔
只記得不斷蠶荳
閉上眼還有回憶門鎖在胸口
連呼吸都難以承受
忽然發現你的手
能給我熟悉的溫柔
原來這份感動才是我所夢寐以求

懷著昨日那些傷口遇見了你
是你讓我獲得意義擁有了盛意
當所有虛榮都變空虛
是你用愛醫好我的內心
病開始慢慢痊癒
懷著昨日那些傷口遇見了你
是你讓我提醒自己分秒要珍惜
前面的風景還不確定
可是愛你讓我重複生命
病終於終於痊癒 痊癒

*typed word by word*

My Z...

Today.. I came to realise.... My ZChen may be leaving us anytime....
Yesterday 3am... he blogged something about taking a break, and who knows... he may decide not to come back.... His contract with his recording company has ended. So now, it's a big question mark of my Z's career.....
I am really sad............ I have been leading a life with a piece of Z almost everyday for the past years... I really dont wish to lose him. I want my life to revolve around him. I want him to be in my life for longer.... He is able to bring me happiness....
But somehow, he may not be leading a happy life as a singer for the past 5 years.. but at least he is doing something that he is passionate about (i.e. Singing) and he had gained some real good fans like us... That shd be the reward for his hard work and sufferings for the past 5 years....
I hope that everything is worth it... And i really hope that I will still continue to have him in my life.....

Let me talk about my happy memories with my beloved prince...

I 1st got to know him when I went to ZPop concert in JUly 2004. At that time, i was really listening to English songs and got no interests in Chinese pop.. The reason that I go is because of the guy that I liked... There were $10 and $50 tickets. HE insisted on the $50, so I obliged quite unwillingly...
But now, I really think its really worth it..Thanks to him for insisting the $50. That night, I was mesmerised by Z... He sang really well LIVE and he was so friendly and smiley, and kept making contact with the audience.. I could almost feel that he is smiling at me... thats the kind of charm he was oozing with...
After that concert, I went to buy his album the next day... From that day onwards, I became his fan....
The next time I saw him... was in Oct 2004. He came for a mini concert @ Kbox and also performance for the cancer charity show. It was a great performance at KBox where he sang quite many songs... This is the 1st time that I watched him live as a fan.. The following day, I went mediacorp to catch him. It was a great performance as well... And it was the 1st time that I throw away my "dignity" and carried a board with "ZChen". It's kinda malu for me, coz I am so old.... But heck, I just need to show my support for Z....
Then... the next time I saw him was @ the Renci Charity Concert in Jan 2005. At 1st, I had refused to go coz I will need to donate $80 to get the tix to see him... But after some consideration, I decided to go for it just few days before the concert. I went all the way to Hougang to get the tix, and all the seats left are quite sucky position... But, Just do it.
I went with Anna and Sandra... The 3 of us had a great time supporting Z. He was wearing all white, looking like Prince Charming. I remembered we shouted "智成 你很帥" and he flashed us a grin. He also did some push up.. haha
I was expecting him to sing at least 2 songs... but in the end, he only sang 1 song..."Bao you wo". So that song cost me $80!
The next day, I did something outrageous! I told my boss i will take medical leave an I went to airport to send him off! Geez... this is the 1st time that I send idols @ airport... quite lame act, but I still do it. I went with Sandra. It was the very 1st time I meet him so upclose. He was in a dark grey jacket and a grey cap and lookin very tired. I was awed and kept quiet the whole time. I was just gawking at him, being shy... I dont know what to say to him. To me, idol is still idol! I am not supposed to converse with him. I should only idolise him... Sandra and me ask him if we can take pic with him... at 1st he refused... he said he did not make up and look horrible. If take pic, 改天老了﹐看了會嚇一跳. Haha.. thats how cute he is... Later he said.. ok.. later will take 1 with us. So then he proceed to check in... when everything was settled, he obliged to take pic with us. His promoter help us to take the pic. He kept telling the promoter to stand as far as possible. He mentioned that its digital camera and can zoom in for bigger pic what. After we take the pic, I was like saying.. can we take 1 more? He said firmly, no... only 1!
Ok lor.... i obliged..... and we send him to the entrance...before he left, he waved goodbye to us too... Thats how nice he is...
Then in May, i received a alarming message from my friend.. She smsed me saying she saw ZChen@ taka! I was sooooo shocked!! Coz I was @ orchard with my mama... It was pre Motherday and i had brought my mama there for a meal. THough I received the message, I could not abandon my mama and go after him.. Sigh... My heart was heavy. I wanted so much to go chase him... Then I realised it is also 1 day before his Birthday. He had come Singapore to celebrate his birthday I guess...
What a pity..... My lucky friend... How I wish I was the 1 who saw him....
Then it was months without him..............
I could only stick to online ,etc to "keep in touch" with him.

Then in August, he released his 快樂album. It was a much anticipated album for me. I even went to the Cd shop somewhere far to ask and get them to call me when the cd was here. I was exhilerated when I got my Happiness....

Then, i got to know that he had a series of Hotlink Promo tour and there is 1 @ Johor.I was confused on whether I should go anot... In the end, I went to Citysquare @ JB to get the tickets...
Few days later, Malaysia's some1 important passed away, hence his concert was postponed. It was initially on sunday, and was postponed to a Tuesday. I was like... argh!!! Tuesday?? how can I go??? But I ignored it, and went there anyway. It was my rare chance to see my Z, after such a long time. I remembered that when he came out to perform, I was asking myself.. Am i dreaming? It really felt like a dream to me! I was really touched to see him once again.
After the singing, it was time for the autograph session @ the stage. The host was interviewing some fans and I said unbashingly that I came from Singapore. Why come from sooo far? Bcoz of z. What do u want to say to Z? I said... "我愛你"
Then it was my turn...
I let Z sign the album and we were allowed to take pic with him. I posed with him for my hp camera... then I told him I came from singapore. Then he said he will be goin Singapore on the 29th... Then I said.. yes, I will go see him. Then I took 1 more pic with him on my dig cam.
Then we went toilet which is at the backstage. When i came out, coincidencely, we meet Z! He was on his way out. Then I told him "新加坡見﹗ He replied back "新加坡見﹗"
Then we came out and as we were walking, a car passed by. I took a hard look and realised it is Z in the car!!! We waved at him, and he waved back...
I was realy happy that day! and when I saw the pic i took with him, I would smile sillying... It looks nice....

Then he came Singapore on 29th... His flight was around 12+.... I went airport to welcome him. We wanted to take pic with him, but his promoter was telling us not to, let him have some rest... And we are such good fans that we agree... We are really good fans who really give him his space and respect. We will not do things like chase him in cab to his hotel... we will only see him when it is appropriate...
He came, looking very boyish...
Then we went Junction 8 for his autograph session. It was a great show. Went up stage for his autograph, and passed him a box of mint choco... Also, I let him sign the pic I took with him @ JB...(for more details of the day, refer to my previous blogs..http://enaj18.blogspot.com/2005_10_01_enaj18_archive.html)
The next day, was at Marina square .. It was KBox 3rd anniversary show. he performed 2 songs on stage. Then theres this upclose and personal meet the fans session. We can ask any questions we want. But I did not ask any question... I was too shy to ask.. so I just sat there and enjoy him... it is like i am in a dream.. to be trapped in a small room with my idol... so upclose
as usual, he joked around...
Then, we had a chance to take pic with him again!!! at the request from us, granted by his promoter. After the thingy, he was in the next room eating sushi. Then we were allowed to go in 1 by 1 into the room to take pic with him. I tell u.. my heart was thumping hard... I am soo afraid I will just fall down on my way in. I took my pic with him...
The 3rd day was at NUS campus concert. It was the greatest concert I had attended. We were sitting in the front row, so I gotta see him singing soo close!!! And i was sitting in the middle... right smack in the mid of action! wahahaha... there was this question and answer, and i managed to answer 1 question and won a goodies bag from the hand of my Z! Was very happy!! the gift is something which I will treasure alot!
Then, the next day, it was time to send him off.... i went airport again. But this time, we did not managed to catch him as he had slipped in. However his promoter was very nice and called him to come out and wave to us. he appeared and really waved at us. It was a pity coz I had prepared a gift for him. I had put the group photo in a makeshift frame and got as many fans to write messages to him... We gave it to the promo, and hopefully she had passed it to him...
That was the last time that I see him.
After that, I bought a Hotlink card which enables me to sms him. Each sms cost me abt $1! It was very expensive, but I am very happy.. especially when I receive his replies... I can say, i received quite a number of replies . i felt sooo fortunate to be able to "communicate" with my idol. I really treasured it all. I kept a record of all our messages in a book which I religiously update it....
Then.. he opened his blog, and I started communicating with him via that...

My dear Z... these are all the nice nice experiences I had with him.... I really will miss him alot if he is to give up singing... i am afraid I will not have chance to see him anymore...
I hope he will be back after his break, and hope his career will fly higher....

Wishing my Z all the best!! No matter where he is.. or what he is doing, he is forever my 皇上﹗﹗﹗﹗He lives in my heart forever! And I will always remember his 聲音。。。。

原住民,我喜歡。。

Look at my collection of book!
I really got the whole set man!!

This is the book about Taiwan 原住民。。。。

I dont know why.. but I am very intrigue by them... So would like to know more about them... hence the books...

These cost me... abt......$50....
But it is really interesting....

Now.. i really wish to know a 原住民friend... Any lobang?????

Recover

Cant find the lyrics of my current fave song online.. so... i resort to ....

steal from my dear Bon....

I cant write as pretty as you.. so pls dun blame me....

This great great song... I have been playing it non-stop today... what a touching song.................

religion?

yesterday, i was watching a show... an interview show about this singaporean singer who is very religious....
she claimed that she used to have depression, and til she came to know this religion. then.. she got well....

U must be thinking that i will compliment that religion for curing her depression rite?

Wrong!!!

it got me thinking... is this religion for those weak people who are not able to face challenges themselves, hence they have to sort after their god for more confidence? If you are genuinely strong, why do u need a belief which tell u that u can do it.. some1 is with you no matter what? U should be able to accept the challenges or whatsover yourself, and not to be under some illusion...
I have heard many tales of people who are how cham and how cham, and after they got into this religion, they are cured... how can that be possible?
they are not cured!
they are just kena brain washed and filled with some funny excuses which convinced them that everything is planned to test their strength..
Eg, you got into an accident, lost a leg. this religion will tell u... this is something that their god had planned to test his blah blah blah... it is not a bad thing... it is to challenge u for blah blah blah....
No, losing a leg is bad! and its the truth... it is not a challenge that heaven had planned. it is merely u r suay! But of coz, despite the bad truth, you still need to carry on with life, with whatever u have and face it.
actually u may not be able to tell the difference with the above scenarios. my point is... whatever happened had happen.. there is no need to come up with lame excuses to lie to oneself right?

I always remember 1 thing which my ex colleague said.. we were having lunch , and suddenly he pop me a question... Are you a XXX?
I quickly answered: no.. i am a taoism (and i m very proud of my own religion)
then he started to say how great his god is... how many great things his god had done for him... he had been through bad times previously.. and how his god had helped him out of it all...
ok.. fine.... if you feel that your god is that great... pls go ahead and worship him....

BUT!!!! He said.... his god is superior than the other gods... he said... his god never expect anything in return for all that he had done.

Helllo!!!!
1st: you should not criticise other people's god ok... respect other god... for your god may not be that great too ok?
2nd: really nothing in return? I heard u need to contribute how many % of your money to your god every month. Yes, he never force u... but he managed to convince u to part with u $ afterall what!
3rd: Just bcoz we are not in your religion, we had to go to hell??? while u can raise up to heaven???

I can only say... nonsense!

Once I read from a Buddha book... it was saying something like to respect other religions... coz every religion is right.... we should not criticise...
see!! this is what i call benevolence.... this is what GOD should be....

If you think that I am criticising this religion, I am just expressing my views... and mind u... i DID NOT mentioned a single thing about this religion, so dont accuse me of anything ok!!!!
There is no evidence against me.... except unless u agree that your religion is guilty of all these?

Conclusion, every1 have their own god in their heart, be it hindu, muslim, buddhist or even free thinker... we should all respect each other and not belittle other religions... that should be the correct teaching... You can continue to indulge in your religion, but please.... open up your heart and accept others too...

If you still think your god is superior, i can only tell u this.....
YOU ARE IN TOOOOOOO DEEP!

positivism rulezzz

These 2 months.. i seems to be paying off for the 2 years of slacking @ my previous company... yes.. these 2 months can payback the 2 years.... its been sooo long since i worked so hard....

The past 3 days were even better! heewan took leave and i am supposed to cover her.. though she only ask me to cover 1 task... but in reality, i took on more than i expected! the best thing is... she did not leave any instructions or what and expect the genius me to be able to handle! Fwah!! she seee me too up? or she trying to sabo me????
But these days, i am quite happy coz i got on better term with 1 of my colleague.. coz we handle shits together! At workplace, I think the people really matters alot.. if there are shit, but if nice people around, it wont feel so shitty... agree? Yes... I must get along better with my people!

Come to think of it.... this is a good chance for me to challenge myself and shine. You see.. the thing under my charge is quite a high profile thingy, where people will be able to recognise my "capability" . So far, i think i am doing quite ok.. actually i think i can do much better.. juz that i am not very willing to commit myself to it still... Rather then thinking that some of the newbie are given simpler duties, why dont I think of it as a challenge and opportunity for myself?
I am able to use my ability to the max! Maybe, I should work even better so that they will be impressed... and beg me to stay.... then.... i will hang up and sell! wahahahahah

u see.. my contract actually ends before the project ends.... if i decide to leave, its not goin to be easy to find a replacement coz there will be no1 in the project team who had been through the wind wind rain rain... oh yes.... the cruel reality is that i will be the only project team member surviving in the future.. all others are leaving!
hey.. lets not think that far yet......

wow... why am i soooooo positive now?????????
hmmm... muz b bcoz of the $...... wahahhaa.... seee.... somehow....$ is still a carrot....

Just hope that when heewan takes over, she will be mercy to me lah.... at least.. i need to stay til december ok!!!!