blessings for everyone!

I was thinking... people calls it "Beauty and the Beast". What about pairing up a handsome with a female beast? What should people call them? I know.....
Handsome and the Hag! Haha

Ok.. i am serious now...

This morning... i passed an accident site. A motorbike was on the road. There was an ambulance. It was a minor accident. Think the cyclist slipped and fell. But he was injured. The medic were tending to his injured arm. Thank godness he is alrite!

My papa came to my mind... he rides a motorbike too.. i really really dont wish to see him in any accidents.. i was imaging the pain of having the skin scratched against the rough roads. Can u imagine the intense of the pain!? ouch! vehicles are such a blessing cum curse. Yes, it helped us travel great distance, but how many lives are actually taken from car accidents..? Anyway, hope all who ride motorbikes will b safe and sound. It's quite a dangerous vehicle , so open to harm. Especially during wet days.. so dangerous.

Papa, pls ride carefully ok?

another thing is that... it's actually a blessing to be able to reach home everyday. and its a blessing to see my family member come home safe n sound. Ya, everytime we come home, it's a blessing. Just imagine 1 day, if he/she no longer can come home.. how sad that will be... So, welcome whoever comes home warmly ok? coz u really dont know whether it might be the last time or not... anyway.. life is sooo unpredictable!

People, you owe ur family and friends one! So every1 muz take good care of ourselves, so that we can return whatever gratitude they have showered us! Take good care of ur health, be careful on the roads, must maintain a happy heart, give more than you receive, return more than you get, take good care of ur family, work hard, study hard,etc... you get the drift right?

TREASURE UR PRECIOUS LIFE! :)

Happy Tuesday!

oh man! nearly couldnt blog... been having some problems loggin in to .. was thinking.. die die! i cant blog.. how?? my fans will miss me! how do i answer to them..? wahaha
but lucky.. i can blog now lah! hehe.. so... if I never blog too long... it means i am having problems, pls dont miss me too much ok??

Anyway, it has been quite a wonderFULL tuesday! got a nice nice surprise in the morning. I took a look at my hp. Hey.. got new msg... hmm... who msg me..? press press.... wah! i stop breathing, almost. I got a reply fr "zchat".

the message reads " hi, i got ur sms. thks! good nite 2 u 2"

yes!!!! my beloved Z actually replied me!!!! he replied me!!! how can that ever happened?! whaha.. was very happy... but wasnt such a simple price I paid.. each sms i send him cost me $1! I had sent him 5 msg, before i get his reply. Does it mean... every $5 i spent, i get 1 reply? hehe expensive leh! dont like that leh!!! $3 for 1 reply can anot????

Though some of u may think i stupid... but i am not lah.. coz i very happy mah! doing such simple things can make me so happy. Why not???? Happiness is important... no matter what bo liao activities u r engaged.

Z makes me happy! coz he brings 快乐to my life!

Malaysia - Truly Asia

I have been reading up alot on Malaysia.. coz was planning to go on a trip in December... dont know where to go.. so been reading up so that I can make a decision. As I read more, I find that Msia is really interesting. There are many places waiting to be explored. Penang, Malacca, Negeri Sembilan, Sabah, Sarawak, Trengannu, Taiping... really alot....

I would love to explore all parts of Malaysia.
But this dec, I am not in adventurous mood, feel like going ard to just see the culture. Penang, Malacca, Negeri Sembilan and KL are the few options I have for my 3-days-only trip.

1 fine day and when I am fit enough, I would love to climb Mount Kinabalu. I am very fascinated by mountains and hills. The scenery is simply spectacular. But I will need to build up my fitness level 1st... else i might be stuck halfway... and maybe I will become 1 of the orang asli! hahaha

Also, I wanna go see the turtles which lay eggs. explore the jungles in Taman Negera... go walk along the white sandy beaches, experience the different cultures, taste the different food.... there are many places to explore!

After conquering Msia, its China, Australia..........
oh man! i need alot of $$!!

I am old....

Yes... I am really old.... my body, my skin, my mind... they have all aged.... gracefully?

I was roaming along Orchard just now.. saw soooo many youngsters roaming around too... wow... they look young as compared to me. Yes... physically I am old...:(

All of them are soo dressed up, and so excited about the activities that they are going to engage soon. Especially those who are going to chiong/clubbing/pubbing. Me look at them... and started to think about my past...

7 years ago, I am just like one of them.. So excited to be able to go clubbing. Think it's all so interesting. Get to dance to the nice retro music, meet up with friends, and drinking. Everything seemed so fun! Those days, I could just dance all night long, all the way til 3am!
yes... thinking back now, it is amazing.

Now you ask me to go clubbing, i wont be that keen. Huh? Must dance whole night? I dunno got energy anot leh... my back might ache, my legs will ache, must go home so late.. all sorts of reasons which 7 years ago I would not have thought about.

Yes... this is call the ageing process.

Now all those clubbing looks meaningless to me. You pay abt $20, go there dance dance... drink til so drunk for what? Spoil ear drums. Might have those ah bengs fights somemore... so dangerous. So unhealthy.

Hahaa... but I never regret going clubbing during my younger days. It does leave behind some memories for me.

Well, I think there are many stages in our life... when our thinking will evolves. We should do what we think it's right at that age. Coz seriously.. we only get to live every single day ONCE. There will not be any repetition. We need to make good use of every single day. In fact, every single minute is precious.

Some people says... Live life to the fullest. Nay, I think it should be "Live life to the happiest"

Anyway, weekend is here!!! Yahhoooooooo

Once upon a time, in xinshan....

yesterday.. i made a trip to xinshan again. its been almost 1 month since i last went there. And why was I there the last time??? whahaa... its my beloved ZChen's Hotlink promo tour! Yes... i didnt blog abt that extraordinary experience. How can that be?!?!?

Ok.. i will blog from the best that my memories can hold.

That was 25th Oct 05... @ Wisma TiongHua @ 8pm.
It was a Tuesday, a working day leh! I took half day to go there... so walked around there b4 i go see him. It wasnt easy to see him. I mean, we walked from Plaza Pelangi to the building, and its actually quite a long distance. Walked til sweat cats and dogs... but everything is worth it lah... Coz the very last time i see my idol was like Jan 05... hey! almost 10 mths leh.. almost 1 yr! so was very very excited to see him once again!walk walk walk.. finally... reached.....

the event was supposed to start at 8pm.. but he was late. But i am fine with it... coz its him... and anticipating his arrival was such an exciting period...

then the host came out... asking the crowd to scream and act "rowdy".. wahha not exactly lah.. its juz to show our PASSIOn for Z!

then..... hes out!!!! oh.. but hes soooo far... so tiny... but yes... he is singing right in front of me... all these months of waiting...
我等到了！！
somehow... it seems like a dream.... well... cant really remember the sequence of the songs he sang, but i remembered.. he sang "快乐" "让时间开口""预言" "放我的真心在你手心". Well... he mentioned that 让时间开口 was very hot in Singapore! wow.. i feel like standing up and scream... yes yes!!! Singapore loves u!! i am from Singapore!!! wahaha.. but i was shy lah! :P.
As usual, he cracked alot of jokes. esp during the contest part, he kept teased the contestants. there was this girl who went to sing a children song( when they played a Z's song), and Z asked her if she juz happened to pass by the place. Then later when she finally answered correctly, Z said.. oh she finally woken up.
Haha.. my Z is soooooo humurous!

I remember the last song he sang was "放我的真心在你手心". Honestly speaking, I dont really like this song in the 1st place... but after hearin him sing that night, i fell in love with the song too.. its sooo touching.. especially when he sang it with such emotions... wow.... *touched til tears roll down, almost*

Then its the autograph session. YES!!! I Finally can see my idol up close and personal! I promised myself and the SG fans I will tell him we will wait for him in Singapore! hehee.. but i was wondering whether the words would come out from my mouth anot.. coz when i see him.. my legs will turn jelly, will go voiceless...
wahhaha I kanchiong mah!

We queued up... then when we were near him.. the host actually interviewed us. The (super) excited me blurted out that WE ARE FROM SINGAPORE. hahaa... then she asked us why we all teh way from sgp go jb.... wahahaa talk talk talk...

Then its my turn! yes!!! I can see/talk/touch/admire my beloved Z!!
wow! can take photo somemore... of coz i maitu! quick take. The staff there were very nice... they help us take pic.. so the 1st pic i took was with my hp. actually my intent was juz to take a pic of him with my hp. but since they offer such excellent service.. why not??? So... took a photo with him...(happily). Then.. i told him i am from Singapore!! (Yes... i never dumbstruck! wahaha) But huh.. he doesnt look surprised one leh... he was like.. oh yea? ok.. i am coming to singapore on 29th. thank u...
haha.. but of coz.. i was too excited... so told him... i am goin to ALL his events in SG, see him in Sgp. Then i took another pic with him... this time with my dig cam. of coz.. this pic was the better 1... hehe.. he smiled til soooooo sweet!
Wow! i am damn happy that time.... objective met!

then went down stage... then went toilet... which is located behind the stage. Then guess what?!?!When we came out of toilet, z had juz finished his autograph, and he was walking towards the toilet area so that he can go to the lift. wow!! lucky me managed to "bump" into him! wah.... sooo happy! and i told him...新加坡见！he replied back 新加坡见!

wow... soooo happy!! almost wanna hug and kiss him.. but i controlled myself lah..... kidding lah! i not so tiko lah!!

Anyway.. i was really very happy... its like a dream come true... to hear him sing again... to see him so up close..then we went down the building... then when we were walking around the entrance, saw a car drove past. Dont know why, I took a hard look into the car. And guess who is inside! yes!!! my Z!!! he saw us too.. and waved... wow...

what a nice ending ... everything was perfect! perfectly coincidence! hehe

If only everyday of my life, i can encounter such nice experience, I think i will die with a big smile on my face man!

Come to think of it... Z only see us for less than 5 minutes... yet he still remember me when he was in Singapore. It shows how much sincerity he has towards his fans. I believed he will make the efforts to remember his fans. Coz he's one who can really appreciate us who really appreciate him too! Its a to and fro relationship. I am really glad that he is my idol. Selfishly, I enjoyed being 1 of his small base fans, this way then can we have such a meaningful relationship. But at the same time, I do hope that he make it big as he really should. Well, these are some of the dilemma that human faces, "to... or not to....."
But anyway, anyhow, I LOVE ZCHEN!

对感情绝对专一 张智成不做劈腿族 2005/10/26 18:09:18●南洋商报新山26日讯- 本地歌手张智成誓言不做“劈腿族”，在感情的道路上不当第三者，但若遇到心怡的单身女孩，要自己等多久都愿意。台湾演艺圈“盛行”劈腿族，男女关系多复杂，但到台湾发展的张智成，却没有“入境随俗”，他回到大学念书的地方举办个人新专辑签唱会时认真的表示，自己对感情绝对专一，若是遇上心怡的对象，只要对方还单身，一定会主动追求，不会等待时间开口。“快乐唱游”签唱会张智成的“快乐唱游”全马签唱会，虽因首相夫人辞世而紧急展延至星期二晚上，仍吸引大批死忠歌迷到场支持，让久违了的张智成感动不已。该签唱会由Hotlink呈献，CMG和华研国际联合主办，原订于星期天晚上举行，紧急延后两天至昨晚，在新山中华大厦黄树芬敬礼堂与歌迷见面。湿答答的天气，再加上不是周末假日，但仍有逾百名歌迷在7时许陆续抵达，秩序井然的等待偶像现身，除了少男少女粉丝外，当中还有不少家长级的粉丝到场助阵，场面温馨热闹。张智成没有让歌迷等太久，约8时30分，张智成首先带来第6张个人专辑中的歌曲《Just Once》，号称R & B情歌王子的他表示，这首歌的音乐录影带完全由大马导演制作，由于本地素质较好的导演多为广告导演，价码不低，因此，该音乐录影带耗资不菲。他接受主持人菲比的访问时说，第一天的拍摄工作从凌晨4时开始至半夜，第二天也一样，虽然过程不轻松，但难得能够在自己的家乡拍摄音乐录影带，再辛苦也值得。接着，张智成呈献专辑同名歌曲《快乐》，这首歌曲他也有份参与制作，感觉很不一样。毕业于柔佛士姑来工艺大学的他表示，在新山念大学时已开始写歌，但当时只抱着学习的心态，写歌是兴趣，不是专长，认为自己只想追求简单的生活，好好的对待自己。在演唱第三首歌曲《让时间开口》时，菲比称赞张智成唱歌时非常投入，还说认真的男人最有魅力。但身高170公分的他自认自己长得不够高，不够帅，唯一的专长是唱歌，必然全情投入。此外，他说，当面对心怡对象时，自己不会选择让时间开口，而会主动出击，只要对方还是单身，要自己等也愿意，因为等待也是一种耐性的考验。超级歌迷演唱歌曲签唱会临时改期，张智成没有让歌迷失望，继续带来第五首新歌，也是在本地制作的《预言》。他说，这首歌曲具有浓浓的中国风，其实自己每张专辑都会收入一些中国风的歌曲，但都是本地创作，希望以自然的方式将这些作品推向国际。在中场阶段，主持人邀请6位超级歌迷组成3队上台较劲演唱张智成的歌曲，以赢取丰富的奖品和海报，其中一名参与者脱线演出，竟然唱起儿歌，令台上台下爆笑不止，张智成在游戏环节也展现幽默的主持人功力，将歌迷情绪带到最高点。接下来他还演唱了卡拉OK点唱金曲《May I Love You》和《凌晨三点钟》，以及旧曲新唱的《放我的真心在你的手心》，为长达1小时30分的演唱时段划下句点。资料来源：南洋商报

張智成新山散播快樂歌迷尖叫.全場沸騰報導：陳秋蕾（新山26日訊）張智成到新山散播快樂，造福新山歌迷！ 昨晚在新山中華公會大廈舉行的《張智成快樂唱遊全馬簽唱會2005──新山站》，讓歌迷帶著快樂，滿心歡喜地回家去。簽唱會未開始前，歌迷們已迫不待地要見偶像一面，直到工作人員將會場大門打開，歌迷非常守秩序地入場、乖乖地靜心等待偶像出場。原訂8時開場的簽唱會，歌迷苦苦等了近40分鐘，在引頸長盼下，由主持人菲比熱情介紹，張智成終于帶著第1首歌《Juat one》現身。張智成一出場，歌迷即瘋狂吶喊，現場尖叫聲連連，張智成的舞台魅力果然令人無法抵擋。在演唱完新專輯的主打歌《快樂》時，張智成感慨地說，快樂是很重要的，並鼓勵歌迷們要追求快樂，更要好好對待自己。歌迷上台玩遊戲之后，主席人菲比挑起感情問題，張智成也坦言，“在感情的世界裡，我是個主動的人，只要遇到心儀的對象，一定會主動出擊，但絕對不會成為第三者。”他續說，在愛情的國度裡，等待是最好的手段，接著就深情地演唱第3首《讓時間開口》，讓現場歌迷聽出耳油。在簽唱會現場，張智成和歌迷玩遊戲，現場選出6位觀眾，組成3組人馬，大會播放張智成歌曲的過門音樂，讓參賽者猜出歌名，並現場清唱一段，參賽者皆使出渾身解數，就為要與張智成做更近距離的接觸。其中，1位女參賽者不知是否因為見到偶像張智成而太緊張，竟在回答問題后唱起兒童歌曲，調皮的張智成逗了該女參賽者，惹得全場哄堂大笑。原來，張智成不但歌唱得好，也讓現場歌迷見識了偶像的搞笑功夫。遊戲玩完了，張智成繼續獻唱由大馬人詞曲創作的《預言》、成名曲《May I Love You》及《凌晨3點鐘》。簽唱會在張智成唱畢《放我的真心在你的手心》后結束，而張智成稍作休息后，就為歌迷簽名及合照。

ZChen Photo Album (Singaporised version)

Heloo!!! You are welcome to take a peep at the photo album which my fren and me have painstakingly create, and maintain! It's just gonna get better and better! Watch that space!

http://sg.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/ahseng0508/my_photos

Wise but blur....

My prince laughing at my blurness!




















And my prince wanna whack me!
Although i am a person with high wisdom.. i can be quite blur at times.

I was checking my leave folder.... to see if i got enough leaves for the shutdown... then i discovered... all along i have been lookin at the wrong place!
I always look at the leaves taken... and thought that is what is left.. which is 3.5 days currently.

Today i look deeper.. and discovered i actually have 6 more days of leave!
wow!! am i blur????

But this is a pleasant surprise! i got sooo many leaves ! yeaaaaa!

忍一时风平浪静 退一步海阔天空

dont know whether i got the writing correct anot... but tis term is sooo applicable in life!!

SQ is quite nice to me today... she helped me complete 1 of the task ... and juz now went through patiently with me...

seee... lucky i 忍！the world is not so bad afterall lah :)

and maybe i proved my 实力 with my work...

and its friday!! hip hop hurray hoooo hey hooo.....

A new goal

I got a BIG plan!!! Yes! A new goal in my life.... something for me to work towards...
I have a goal! A mission! A target! An objective! A drive! U get what I mean right?

Yes..... the exciting plan is........


I am going to bring my parents to travel! wahaha... isnt that sooo amazing of me?I am going to be the sponsor.. still dont know when going.. or where... think it will be HK...early next year.

Yes.. I need to save money for the Mission (somewhat) Impossible.

Pls help to support me! Emotionally, plus phsyically? (yes. Donations are welcome!)

Best Regards
The Filial Daughter

SQ

callin her miss cat is too polite....
i muz tink of a bombastic nick for her......

what shd it be.......?
SLBB??
KSL?
SQ?

tink SQ not bad! any1 know which SQ flight crashed? the number.. maybe i shd name her after that man,.....

my anger is still burning o...... i can punch people!

buay song!

feeling very fustrated now!! i am filled to the brim with loads n loads of work... which needs many many man hours. the task which i am currently doing need ard 12 hours (if i work fast), and miss Cat juz told me abt the task yesterday noon at 4++.. n told me to submit tomorrow... ok... so does she assumed i dont need to sleep to produce the results? pls.. i am not wonderwoman and i am not goin to sacrifice my sleep juz for the damn work! anyway... i did it til 2 am yesterday... dindt managed to finish. now i am still doing it.
best part is... i juz got an email fr miss cat... askin if i have finished? and i need to submit by tmr. and the bestest part is... she cc my boss in the email. wat the Fork!!!!!!!!!! SABO ME!

then she follow up with another email asking if i have completed another task, (which she taught me on tues... and in the email she actually wrote monday!)

!#$%$%^%&^ what is this?!?!
anyway... i have done my best.. if she continue to be nasty... then i will quit and let her do all these shit herself

T
M
D

i hate working hard

i cant resist telling every1 that i have been soooo hardworking today. Yes.. its now...1.52 AM, and I have just stopped my work for the day! there are simply soooo much work waiting for me nowadays... why why???? tomorrow... more works await me....

i really hate working.... doing these meaningless things.... i am doing a tedious data entry work.. which i think.. its simply a waste of my precious time! i shd b sleeping now!

argh!!!!

Dear god... pls take away these meaningless yet taxing jobs from me.. let me revert back to my slacker life... then will i be happier... u wan me to be happy right?
ok....
i better go sleep now!! i need my beauty sleep! sobzzzzzzzzzz

Spreading 快乐 around

Yes! pls up your pc volume... the wonderful song that u are hearing right now.. yes yes... its 快乐 LIVE by 张智成，my beloved prince idol. Let me re introduce you to him again!

Btw, I record this song from his NUS concert.. yes.. he is singing live... doesnt he sound fantastic??? yes yes.. its all 100% LIVE!!

Anyway.. let me share with you the background of the beautiful song.
PrinceZ penned and composed this song. He was waiting for the elevator, pressed the button.. and the lift came down very fast! wow... he was so happy that he dont need to wait very long for the lift. Then suddenly 快乐melody flew into his mind. He was thinking... 快乐是很简单的。 Things like lift coming to him so fast.. attributed to his happiness too... yes.. that is the very 1st step to compose 快乐。
After finishing this song.. he somehow felt that something is still missing. then suddenly a canto song (分分钟需要你) which he used to sing in the 名歌餐厅 came to his mind. He incorporated that song into his original song.. Bingo! They perfectly compliment each other. 好神奇啊！he said!

That is how this song came about... the message behind this song is to remind everyone, including himself to be happy... to derive joy from simple things which you may somehow neglect at times. He wants everyone who listen to his 快乐，to really appreciate the simple things in life... only then... can you be really happy...

A sincere and meaningful artpiece for your enjoyment.... Listen... and hope my prince really delivers happiness into your life, just like what he had showered me with!

p/s: listen out to the part when he changed the lyrics to..你问我怎么那么帅。 hahaha

Lucky Jay

Wah! I am watching the Golden Horse Award... and Jay Chou got the Best New Actor award (for Initial D) !!
No.. i am not impressed... I was like..."Huh?? What??"

Was he that good?? Did he act in that show??? He was just showing his usual attitudely face what. Is his acting that good? Well.. he was ok in the show... quite coool.. but dont think he deserved the golden horse award lah... I am sure there are better actors around who deserved that award...
Anyway... Jay is really a lucky fellow huh.. Doing so well in music industry.. and now.. in movie as well... Why huh?

He's not very handsome, just look cool
His voice not very good what (My Z sings better, in my humble opinion )
He's not very entertaining kind

Why huh?? What did he do??? I wanna know the secret.. so I can advise my Z on it. my Z deserved such luck too....

Play that funky music out LOUD!

Look! This is my latest techie possesion i bought for myself today. A speaker cum sofa for my mp3 player! haha.. yes! i can blast songs out loud now! looks quite stylo right? N its not expensive. The only bad point is.. it needs 4 batteries! hope they will last for a long time man...

very pleased with my purchase! I should have gotten this thing long long long ago!!!

why why???

I am known as a person with great patience... BUT sometimes... i can just get so impatient.

when people are doing things so slowly that it hinder my progress. Eg walking slowly in front of me when I wanna walk fast. hey u wanna walk slowly.. pls siam 1 side and walk can? dont block people's way mah! alamak!

when people are being selfish and inconsiderate. I cant stand people who only think of himself/herself. Pls lah... there are people around you. So, can you pls open up your eyes.. (and ur brain too if it's off?) and see that you need to take other people into consideration. gosh! If only more people are considerate (like myself), then the world will definately be a more beautiful place to live...

when people assume they know me, and worse thing is... its the wrong assumption! eg.. 1 assumed i will feel sad when something something happen. and the worse thing is.. i dont feel that way leh.. so pls people.. dont anyhow assume how others feel... u really DONT KNOW... so pls... dont anyhow assume....

when people wanna kpo about my life (especially when I dont feel like telling) and I tell you, some people just dont give up. They are simply insensitive( maybe alittle dumbo too?)

when people dont answer my question straight to the point. I admit sometimes I commit this sin too, unintentionally. Eg I ask Miss G.. so is that mee nice? she told me.. "eat liao very full.. coz gravy very thick". And i have to ask (louder) "SO IS IT NICE?"
wah lau! i ask u nice anot.. u go tell me your grandmother stories for what!

when people are being damn naggy and stupid. EG.. i told Miss G to remind me matter X on sunday. And dear Miss G msg me on Sat to remind me. wah lau eh!!! Sunday leh!
Sunday! Saturday! Different leh! you dont see 2 "S", then tink they are the same can?

Haiyo! People with Low EQ (and IQ also), can you kindly refrain from communicating with me? Your cooperation will be greatly appreciated

联合早报有我的智成！！！

你们看！！！ its my ZChen!! my beloved princeZ! I am sooo delighted to see it! hehee..
(Thanks to my informants... who have carried out their duties diligently :P. Pls continue to help me look out for my Z!)

Its an article showing how he "messed" himself up with bread making.. hehe.. contained alot of cute pics of him... as usual.. posing those cheeky looks.. which juz make me wanna pinch his face soooo much! It's funny huh? When you like some1... u will find EVERYTHING he do cuteeee. If it's another artiste, I maybe disgusted hor? hehe.. like 1 of my colleague said... aiyoo.. he act cute ar! (Slap u then u know!!!)

Extreme me

Wow.. this morning while i was on the bus, suddenly something caught my attention. The bus in front of my bus... i saw a familiar name... Danny Ong.... Monash University... then i quickly look at the "model". Hey!!! thats my friend!! ex- colleague to be precise. Wow!!! Hes famous now!!! I am so proud of him!!! let u catch a glimpse of his glory!

Sometimes I am such a practical person... sometimes i am very inpractical.

My bro recently juz bought a flat, and he was going to renovate his house... gonna redo his floor(which is already readily tiled), put up some spotlights.... blah blah blah

oh man! i think hes wasting his money! Worse thing is... hes taking a bank loan for the renovation! why why???? If you got no $, then dont go through such extravagence lah! Imagine next time, he had to pay bills, pay many expenses and service his loan... when he is old... will he still have money for retirement?? I really doubt so. I think theres really no need to beautify the house when you dont really have the capability!

Haiz.. next time my house will be damn ugly... for my refusal to spend too much on furnishing my house. Maybe i will just put up an ugly florescent light huh? hehehe money can be put into better use... like improving my daily lifestyle.. instead of paying bills for the many spotlights shining on my tv! Ha! for what leh???

But occasionally, you will see me spending money on bo liao stuff... hehee... thats me lah... i got 2 extreme side in me.... maybe there is 2 spirits living inside my body!!! oh no! i have split personality!!!!

Choices?

I hate making decisions thus i hate having choices. Coz i am afraid of making the wrong decision and who can I blame it except myself....
sighz... so pls dun give me any choices! I hope just one good road will land in front of me so i can juz approach it with no doubts.

However, I am now faced with a dilema.. yes... I gotta make a choice... which will change my life somehow....

Should I go?
Should I stay?

Should I....?

*Argh!!!!!*

feeling chim lately...

Yesterday I was surfing around.. and read some articles on my princeZ. and after reading them, was quite upset lah... coz they were all reports speculating that he is considering quitting the scene...

he said things like.. hes very tired already, hes not suitable for the entertainment scene, if got fate next time will meet again, if he no longer sing, his songs will still be with us (through the cds).

Wah say, how can he quit now???? what abt me?? I really regret not "discovering" him earlier, thus i had missed out alot of his pasts... Now when i discovered him, he is contemplating about quitting...
this aint fair!! i still need to watch him perform 1 leh.. else ... i may suffer fr depression ar!!!! wahahaha serious hor! dun play play!

But seriously... its quite sim tia (heart pain) to see him struggling like this... thus I wrote him a long long encouragment message yesterday on the forum. Hope he will read it.

He has proved himself to be as of a friend to his fans and we really do love him truly... hope everything will work out for him... hope he wunt b unhappy always. As he mentioned... we are all human, we cant be happy every single minute what.... true lah.... hope he will only be 10% unhappy... 90% happy!

Zhi Cheng, Practise what you preach!! I mean what you sang/wrote
你是你自己的作者， 何必写那么难演的剧本( dont give yourself too much stress. Dont think too much and too deep)

Below is my msg to him.... is it touching enough? :~) muahaha

智成，
刚才在读你的报道，看后还满伤心的。一直提到你可能会退出娱乐界。

不可以！你走了，我们怎么办？

大概是你在娱乐界找不到你所谓的理想的舞台吧， 也让你很失望。

我们都明白你踏路这一行， 是想把好音乐带给大家。 这点，你已经做到了！有许多人都在欣赏你美丽的声音。所以呢，你是成功的！真的， 不然为什么还会有这么多fans 牢牢地支持你呢？ 我们听到你的声音， 感受到你的城恳， 看到你的努力。 我们都被你感动了。

真的是希望你能坚持下去。。 如果可以的话， 就尽量把娱乐圈的烦恼抛到far far away!
只要你有用心唱你的歌，就是个成功的歌手了！我们也会永远地支持你的！

当然，我们也很希望你会快乐。 如果有一天，你真的是蹭不下去，我也会尊重你的决定的。我们也不想你太难过。。。
可是真的会不舍得啦，所以。。。
“dear god, 能不能放宽智成的期限。。？“

智成， 还真的不懂怎么表达我想说的每一句话。 真的真的真的真的希望你会像你的歌一样的快乐。希望你一切都顺利， 能找到你所要的舞台。

就快到内地去了， 希望你现在能好好休个息， 照顾好你的身体。 不然我们会为你心痛的。可以想， 但不要想太多啦！

智成， 加油吧！！当你感到down时，就想想可爱的我们吧.

你的歌声已在我的记忆，人间多些爱的传奇。放你的名字在我的内心　我们一定会再相聚。。。一定要！
新加坡还在等着和你下次再见。

说的那么多 （+ 错字）。。 真不好意思。 重点是。。 智成，我们都会在你的后面扶持着你的！！

加油！ 加油！ 加油！

p/s: 如果你真在大马开场售票演唱会，我一定会集和你新加坡的fans一起去支持你的！Promise! 你的梦想一定会实现的！

快乐小王子， 记得要快乐！

贴身歌迷 随时围绕在你左右 像守护你的星座：May I Love Z

結婚一定會快樂的嗎？

today, 1 of my best friend went to register her marriage. Best Wishes and everlasting happiness Yi!!

Then i was juz reading an interview with my Z (yes.. him again!), he talkin abt his marriage views. Which I find myself nodding somehow.... Will getting married guarantee happiness? Not necessarily... we do see many cases of divorce right?

What is marriage actually? It is actually the signature of a few persons on a piece of paper, which will then declare you as husband and wife. So, we operate via a piece of paper? How interesting! Yes, it is a contract which u abide u will stay together "forever, thru sickness and blah blah blah". But do you really mean it??? Well.. maybe for that moment yes... ( perhaps some r juz agreeing as a procedure!) Do we really see all married couples who will go thru thick n thin together and stay forever happy? keeping their promises?

What's worse is those couples who registered their marriage so that they can apply for flats... the whole idea of marriage is totally out! Unfortunately, this is a common case in Singapore, and that is the damage caused by the materialistic society.

I think its really not easy to be living with another person. I am rather sceptical abt living a life with some1 else... except my mama and papa whom i have stayed with for my past 25 years. Will i ever find some1 that I can live comfortably with, some1 whom i can disclose all my ugly sides and still accept me as i am?

I used to want to get marry ... Asap...
but now... not really the case... I used to think no matter what, i have to get marry once in my life! Even if i have to divorce in the end.
But why go through all the troubles and miseries to get back to the original starting point? If i can find some1 whom i aspire to live together with, then marriage should be nice... (which of course I really hope to find one day)

I am still searching for my 王子...
my happiness...
my marriage which I hope that it happens only because of one reason... LOVE


張智成最近透過越洋電話接受新加坡媒體訪問時透露說：“我是個很賤的男人，若對方越是理我，我就越不理對方；若對方越不理我，我就越珍惜”的愛情論，問及會否因此而傷害很多愛他的人？他笑說媒體似是有點小題大做，但他直認不諱自己有時候真的不太懂得照顧情人的感受。他說：“感情本身就是一種傷害，因為兩個背景懸殊的人走在一起，思想上一定會有所衝擊。談戀愛必須要找到對的人才行，就像一個凹一個凸，互相配合得到才能得到幸福啊！”
抱著隨緣態度的他，笑說早已向父母闡明他是個“不婚主義者”。“他們一提起這問題時，我就會反問他們，結婚一定會快樂的嗎？一定會幸福的嗎？我覺得婚姻是一場賭博，而我也常對兩老說，現階段我還不需要婚姻，就一路陪著他們、照顧他們就好了！”
智成說自己很“嘴硬”，喜歡說服人，就像說服他父母不催他結婚一樣。他不置可否地說：“或許這就是典型金牛座的性格吧。”

快乐是可以分享的。。。

Look whos talking???

Its your truly (ME lah!) and my Z.... Look! hes sooooo happy talking to me..... dont tell me he..... me.....?
*blush*

Okok... I look happier than him lah! ahhahaa :P

Anyway... this is the time when he said i was the 1 who went xinsan .... hehehe thats why i am sooo happy lah.. coz he remembers me!!

To: Jane

Look look!! This is my beloved copy of my Happiness... yes.... See the "To Jane"..

How I Love the way my princeZ wrote J-A-N-E.

放我的真心在你的手心

放我的真心在你的手心　也许明天不再相遇 (Place your true heart in my hand Maybe we wont meet tomorrow)
放你的真情在我的衣襟　风雨吹不进我心的宁静 (Place your true feeling in my XXXX Wind and rain wont enter my peaceful mind)

眼前多少艰难　漫漫长路有谁来陪伴你同行 ( So many difficulties in front The long journey who will accompany you)
眼底藏着秘密　只愿与你同心　要把世界唤醒 (Secrets hidden in my eyes Only hope to have same frequency To wake the world up)

放你的名字在我的内心　我们一定会再相聚 ( Place your name in my heart We will meet one day)
放你的歌声在我的记忆　让人间多些爱的传奇 (Place my voice in your memory Let the world be filled with love)

拖延

This is the touching lyrics of the song 拖延(tuo yan). Very moving... saying abt this guy "talking" to god.. asking for blessing.....
:~)

想问你要怎能才得到宽恕 ( Wanna ask you how do I get blessing?)
尤其是说到梦的长度 ( Especially about lengthening dreams)
世界上那么多信徒要你来祝福 ( There are so many followers on this earth waiting for your blessing)
一定要有人被辜负 ( There will be some1 who will be neglected)

如果可以说出我心愿 (If only I can tell you my wish)
但愿一秒等于一天 (Hoping every second is like a day)

Dear God我只想祈求能多爱一些 (Dear God I only wish to love more)
多幸运有她陪我相恋 (How lucky I am to have her to love)
慈悲一点别让她太早说再见 (Please be kind and dont let her say goodbye so soon)
Dear God能不能放宽爱情的期限 (Dear God Can you extend the deadline for love)
让拥抱可以拖延时间 ( Let a hug delay the time)
让吻她的瞬间像永远 (Let the moment of kissing her be like forever)

我认输两个人的力量不足 ( I admit defeat, two person's strength is insufficient)
更需要获得你的呵护 (It needs your care)
趁现在未结束之前真心地倾诉 ( Before it ends, I sincerely pray)
希望你会给我帮助 (Hoping you will lend me a hand)

我们终会输给时间 ( Eventually we will lost to time)
请别急着安排那终点 (Please dont hurry and plan the finishing point)

Mamee for you?

hahaha.. i juz read something funny....

really funny......

my princeZ bought... mamee for his fans... @ his KL concert...
he bought many bags.. and during the rehearsal.. he already warned the people not to go off.. coz he got alot of mamees.... wahahhaaa

oh man.. hes simply tooo sweet n nice... can u imagine a star.. buying mamee for his fans.....?? hes sooo nice......... makes ppl love him more.......

好人有好报。。 really hope all his wishes will come true!! hope he will be 快乐, 分分钟。。

智成， you are the best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sexy Sexy!

I juz cant help but keep watching the videos of z..... especially the ones taken in NUS.. coz they are big! can see all my Z's cutie expressions....

Just Once
very nice.... when he kept teasing the crowd.. and making every1 scream when he threw the posters out... wah.. the way he throw the poster.. very suave!! muz have practised alot at home on the hundred ways to throw a poster with STYLE. and in the video.. there was a moment Sandra and myself tried to get Z to notice us coz we wanna take a pic of him... wah.. he swayed to our front and asked...要拍照是吗？then he gave us a seductive smile and posed! * i melted*
Anyway.. well done!!! 100 marks!!!

预言
very nice again! the way he sang the song... groovy with style.. cheeky feel... and again with his suave poster-throwing patterns... he did it again! 100 marks!!!

贴身情人
very nice again lah!! wow.. i tell u... the way he sang this song is sexy sexy!! the way he glanced at the crowd as he crooned the romantic love ballad... wow.. which girl wont melt??? u tell me!! (maybe butch might fall for him too!:P). my fave scene was when he sang 我们灵细一点通. He pointed to a crowd.. and glanced sooooo seductively at them...... wow!!!! 我也要喔！

THE above 3 songs are those videos which are taken big big... thats why i love to watch them alot.. what a pity my !$#$%^# lousy camera doesnt support much of my efforts! So i had no choice.. but to reduce the rest to a smaller size video clip.

when can i sit in front of my princeZ and hear him sing to me again?????? When? When?????

Because I Love You!!!

If I got down on my knees
And I pleaded with you
If I cross a million oceans
Just to be with you
Would you ever let me down?

If I climbed the highest mountain
Just to hold you tight
If I said that I would loved you
Every single night
Would you ever let me down?

Well I’m sorry if it sounds kind of sad
Its’s just sad I’m worried， so worried
That you’ll let me down

Because I love you
I love you.
Love you
So don’t let me down

If I swan the longest river
Just to call your name
If I said the way I fell for you
Would never change
Would you ever fool around?

Well I’m sorry if that sounds kind of bad
It’s just bad I’m worried
I’m so worried
That you’ll let me down

Because I love you
Love you， love you

My PrinceZ sms.....abt SGP!

31/10: Last nite meet d fans session, abt 50 S'porean fans interviewed me. They were shy but they were very professional in posing questions 2 me.- Z Chen 04:02:12pm
ya.... my princeZ even addressed a fan as "Professor" and he said he felt stressed everytime the Professor asked him question! wahaa... so funny....

01/11: In conjunction wif YOU Weekly Magazine's theme 'How 2 b a Caring Lover', I demonstrsted how 2 make bread 2 please your love ones. - Z Chen 11:16:51am
hey.. i ate the the lovely bread..
he made it for his love ones..... me..... *blush*

01/11: Last nite, my last promo tour @NUS Temasek Hall was jam packed. Now I'm on my way back 2 KL 2 C u @ Cathey car park, Jln Bkt Bintang, 8pm. - Z Chen 02:56:12pm
yea! the NUS crowd are soooo high!! Think Z got high too! Hope he had enjoyed the performance. I enjoyed the NUS concert the most!!

智成以在我肚子里。。 哈哈哈

Oh.. thats it! no more princeZ in Singapore... end of my hectic days too.... 3 days juz flew by like this... seems pretty short and fast.. yet... these 3 days are sooo memorable to me （they seems long somehow too)... i felt that I am 1 step closer to my PrinceZ. I seem to understand him more... feel him.. appreciate... and respect him... I really love you ffrom the bottomest of my heart!!! you truly is the princeZz of the princes! hehehe

Went to the airport to send him off.. his flight was changed to SQ 110 which left at 1235. Hey! last chance to see z leh!! so... i woke up at 8am! rushed... get out of hse at 915... and took a cab there! the cab fare cost me $20.20! but surprisingly i dun feel the heartache... reached there at abt 10.... sooo early rite??? waited........waited........
then suddenly... some1 said he had already gone in... shocked man!! how could this be?! we rushed to the glass door.... he had indeed went in.. he went in via the 1st class entrance, thus giving us a slip. But the promo (Thanks XinHui!!!!) was very nice... she called Z's assistant.. and told her to let z wave at us... through the glass door....
我的你　总是迟疑
连吻别也要隔着玻璃
我的你　在我指缝间远离去

then we saw the tiny z pop out.. and he started waving at us.... he waved all the way! too far to see him lah.. but he seems to be in pretty light mood (which I am glad, hope he had enjoyed himself in Singapore!). then as he was disappearing behind the wall.. he blew us a kiss! i saw that! and I blew back! wahahaa... he was giggling.... and wave... and... he disappeared............

then the promo passed us something.. PRECIOUS. PRECIOUS MOMENT.
she said z ask her to pass them to us. it was bread which z had made himself yesterday! it was in 2 plastic bags. bits n pieces... we were thinking.. har? what har?
then we figured out! its 智,成！！wow!!! very nice... and sooooo sweeet of my princez... now i love him more.... i mean... which star will actually embraced his fans with such 爱心?

i am really touched by his sincerity... yep! we ate them up.. and now we have 智成in our stomach! hehehe

haha.. i thought i will feel very sad and down after he goes... but i am not! not say i am happy that he go.. but i also dont know leh... somehow these few days of following him, i have learnt some wisdom from him too.... maybe that explains my light heartedness at the moment...

as he had said... 贴身亲人.. doesnt mean that the person has to stick with you 24 hours a day. (ahem i not saying hes my lover lah.. just taking an example.. but if he wanna be my lover... 我依然张开双臂) .
He said ... as long as its in the heart... its sufficient. I agree totally! there shd not be a 贴身亲人, every1 shd be entitled to their own time and space. like now... hes in my heart... i still feel happy... he also said... possessing something doesnt really guarantee happiness. sometimes when u dun have it... u will tend to treasure more... true true!
he also said that.. we should all slowen down our pace... which is something i totally agree... he said... 走这么快干什么？要慢慢走，看看环境。 true lor... if u walk too fast... u will tend to miss out alot of things in ur surrounding... sometimes when i see many people rushing at mrt stations.. i really feel like laughing at them. it seems that they CANT miss this train.... else they will lost $1 million... no! not even a 5 min wait is permitted! haha.. oh pls.... our mrt are so efficient that the most... we will wait for maybe 8 mins? why is there a need to rush for the trains? cant u juz wait... it wont kill....
me... i will always let the kanchiong spiders go ahead... i will wait... coz i can afford to... i am not rushing for time to sign a million dollar contract! haha thats why i will avoid mrt, especially during peak hours... i really feel uncomfortable in such settings.

我问你什么那么神？这些智慧该如何才获得? My princeZ is a DEEP person!

hes really a great chap! i really respect and love him from the bottom of my heart.. serious! Hope to see him soon!
爱你我认识了快乐。。。
*MUacks*

The Finale... Report from Day 3

today.... i was at the foot of my beloved prince.... yes.. very...
we his fans sat at the 1st row.. and we can gawked him directly... theres only 1 word to describe... SHIOK!!! we sat on the floor.. and he was juz on the stage right in front of me... wow man.. this is the bestest concert i ever attended... how i wish i can halt that moment...
as always.. hes great!!! the greatest singer i ever listened... his LIVE singing.. is really power!!!!

The prince wore a white jacket with light green pants... 帅！！

the 1st song he sang was "Just Once"。the crowd was very high.. i think the students are a great bunch... making the whole place seems so high.. that i think my prince is also delighted to be performing there tonight! he kept teasing the crowd.. who says hes not a good entertainer! He is the best!!

Then he sang 预言....

快乐was performed together with the NUS xin yao students (who played the guitar). the combination is superb!! z was soooooo great.. and make the song... soo nice.. and really delivers the meaning of the song.... touching...

he also sang "may i love you" and "陵晨三点钟" which he did it perfecto!!

and when he sang 担心，the whole crowd was silence.. as if to really block out all other noise... only wan to hear z singing... of coz... he closed his eyes.. and sang with the emotions... wow!! 智成，你好棒啊！i would wanna give him a standing ovalation.... hes simply fantastic...

the last song was 让时间开口, when he ask every1 to stand up... and he rocked the hall!

oh ya... me the super duper lucky girl won a nokia goodie bag.. from my prince!! there was this questioning time.. when they ask qn to the crowd.... and my question he asked was....
"谁知道我的星座?"
my hand shoot up immediately.. chicken feet question!!! its funny... usually i wunt wanna raise my hand to answer question... kinda malu leh.. but today... no form of malu-ness can stop me! I have to get my prince!
and hehee... thanks to my prince for spotting me.. and letting me answer the question.
*taurus* flashed in my mind... but at that point of time.. i 4got what is the chinese word for it... (金牛座嘛！) sheesh... but i really cant remember the chinese.. so i said taurus.. hehehe.. he stil say "是吗?"
当然是啦！！ 8th may is his birthday ok!! i know my stuff!
anyway.. yes.. i was correct... and got the goodie bag.. which consist of a table radio, a nokia hp pouch and a hotlink tour poster (signed by my prince!!). oh man!! tis is 1 of the best prize i have ever won!! from the hands of my prince leh!!

then... theres this autograph session.. and guess what? i bought 2 more copies of his album... queued up... to get them signed... its my turn..... my prince saw me and gave me a "hey its u" kinda grin. i was grinning foolishly back at him too.. "hehe.. yes.. its me again lah".
signed... and we shook hand...(again) I told him i wanna take a pic of him (with my hp camera) and he posed for me again! that is the picture of this blog! too bad its too bright.. else it will b even cuter!

oh man..... hes great great GREAT! i will never get enough of him..... listening to his live singing.. is one of my life's greatest joy!

How? how am i goin to revert back to my normal life... life without my prince in singapore... u tell me how?!?!? i have to turn to the video clips i took, i guess.. what can i do??? :(

Anyway.. it has been great 3 days of following ZChen around. He really have brought "快乐" to my life....

tomorrow, i will bid farewell to him..... really feel like giving him a hug!
hey.. not those tiko kind ok...
its a hug to thank him for sharing good music... encourage him to continue pursuing his dream... and warm up his heart when hes lonely.

智成 你是我的王子，forever！