the wait is ogre!

the wait is ogre!
it took me sometimes to understand the phrase....
i think it means... "the wait is over"
shame on me! shrek fan somemore....

did i tell u... i cant find my shrek happy meal toy!!! damn!!! kanchiong liao!!!
muz comb the whole island for it already!!!

hows my monday?
hmmm.. not blue...... i mean.. not bad....

went office.. and alas! my monitor is not set up yet... grrrrr....
hence i set up myself... and i managed to do it! yahooo!!! i'm quite... good... sometimes....?
then ak came in.. and said wow! u set up urself?
it's like.. he cant believe i can do it...
and he said: u r much smarter than i thought
i turned around and barked: so in your mind, im stupid is it?

ak: oh... no no... u noticed the word smarter? i mean u r already smart.. but u r smarter!! u know....
then from afar, tarzan was muttering: mai sian lah!

wahahahhaa

but the monitor is bringing me more troubles .... now my screen is soo huge that every bloody person who walk past can see my screen.. and discover that i dont work...
sigh.. i feel so conscious msning... let alone surfing net...
i guess 1 of the hidden agenda from my boss is to force me to do my work!!!

then this tarzan jioed ak for breakfast... and tarzan was loitering around our area... stressing ak..
then b4 leaving, ak said hes goin out for meeting
then i looked at him with those skeptical eyes and said: ya.. meeting... important meeting
then they ask if i wanna join
then i said: no... i BZ with my work
and tarzan replied: u dont msn so much lah
wah sia... sabo me man!!!!!!

then later.. they fussed over my keyboard problem.... hence this kind hearted ak went all around to find a keyboard for me... which i felt is not impt...
he went to tell the secretary to buy me a new 1.. then he ask from his friends if they got spare 1s... he really is... go all the way man!
then 1 of his friend got a spare 1...
so he brought to me... and he asked me to wipe the keyboard b4 using, and he offered me his alcohol wet wipes...
then seconds later, he said.. come... i help u...
and ended up he help me to wipe my keyboard while i juz hang around by his side and trying to look interested....
nay... i can really live with my notebook keypad... instead of the bloody-noisy-yellowish keyboard man
now i feel so conscious with my ferocious typing....
yes... they all are trying to be nice to me.. but in a wrong way....
i dun need a big screen! i dont need a kayboard.
what i actually need is a faster pc!!!!!

in the morning, james was meddling with my shrek ears and wan me to put on my NEW monitor...then this ak suggested that i can juz wear it everytime im back to my seat
then i said: cant... it will affect my efficiency!

and tarzan was bioing my monitor.. then he asked how come i have?
i said... becoz of my boss lor....
then he said he also wan... asked me where he can steal it from
me: no.... we dun steal.. stealing is a crime... but i can sell you lah.. cheap cheap.. sell you 100 lah!

then tis ak was askin tarzan abt some technical questions abt his product line.. and this tarzan arrogantly answered he dont know.. hes not a technical expert.. its too technical for him
and then i added softly (but he can definately hear, coz he gave a smug)
"dont do ur work properly.. now people ask u question.. u dont know......"

and this tarzan was walking past us... giving this buay song face
then i asked him: why? why ur face so buay song?
then he broke into a smile.. hahaa.. hes really a childish old man! very young at heart....
then later i went over to offer him a donut... he was like shaking his head, indicating he dun wan
then i said: take lah! wait u buay song again

in the end, he gobbled up the donut...

my dear ak is goin on leave from tomorrow onwards.... im free again!! apparently, hes going somewhere with his wife... for holiday. and juz now he called his wife up. and u know how he greet his wife??
"hello dear dear"
DEAR DEAR ok!!!!!
such a loving hubby....tot dear dear is a term for those ignorant teens... opps!
but lucky wife.... who got such a good hubby...
hope my hubby will be this good too! If i ever get the chance to marry lah......

Shrek 3

Yes, my fave show is coming! Shrek 3!!!

I simply love shrek... and today found out that macdonalds happy meal got shrek toys...counted.. total of 8 figures...

damn... im gonna be a mac slave for 8 weeks! wahahaha

but i love shrek so much that i gotta get them....

i love mikey!

today... bad day... coz migraine attack again.. sigh
when i woke up.. the pain was nagging me.. but i think i better go work...
and my brain was so affected that i actually forgot to bring my hp out...
1st time....
not really 1st time... but i was already on the bus when i discover it.. too late for recovery plan... hence went office hpless.....

reached office.....feeling migrainy n nasueous... but i still manage to look radiant... thanks to the new make up base i juz bought @ the sales! hahah....

Anyway, later sang discovered i wasnt feeling well... and told mikey about it..

then later mikey msn me and asking me why do i look so glum... have i quarrelled with my bf?
Then i replied him.... no bf.. how to quarrel???
then told him i having migraine and feeling nauseous....hes very nice... told me to go home if im not feeling well...
then he told me to go puke on francis and hint him
i was puzzled... what hint him leh?
then i replied i prefer to puke on him
mikey: why
me: hmmm.. personal preference
and he was so excited abt his new big big lcd monitor...

then he walked past... and said " i hate to see such sian faces!" then later he soften down and asked me to go off 1st....
so nice of him...
then he came over and gave me a massage... seriously!
he massaged my head... and my shoulder awhile...
then i asked him how much do i need to pay him?

hes been really nice...
1. he ordered a lcd monitor for me.. the monitor came today.. but i was too sick to set it up.. then he later tell ak to help me set up.. said i very xiaojie 1...
but im not lah.. juz that im feeling sick.... and i wasnt very keen on the so big screen...

2. he converted me from agency contractor to etw... and etw is also a contractor.... no big changes.... but still.. its an effort by him! I think i have 2 more days of leaves?

3. his care and massage....

I would lay my life for him!!!
the best boss ever....

shower me with your gifts

it's been long!
havent got the motivation to blog recently... too lazy, and too busy spending my $ away!
My god... wanna share my sorrows? i just spent $700+ paying my credit card bills, handphone bills, internet and cable tv bills... 700 man!!!
Yest I blew $233 on loreal sales!!
the day before... i blew 102 @ robinsons...
not to mention last week, i spent abt 180 @ marks n spencer + borders

now.. im really disgusted with myself for my spending POWER... i think im really powerful! Guess its time for me to tame down... no more shopping! Stay at home and read my books!
but did some1 mentioned that GSS is comin tomorrow????
(GSS=GREAT Singapore SALES)

past few days had been having a great deal of time man... coz my whole team is away... so i got no gahmen for 3 whole days!!!!
Day 1: reached office at 10... went for lunch@ taka @ 1130.. come back at 3+... went home at 545
Day 2: reached office @ 1030, went lunch at 1145.. come back @ 2+.. go home at 415
Day 3: reached office at 945, went lunch at 1115.to loreal sales.. come back @ 430, go home at 630...
my god.. i hope nobody i know in office read this man.. else i will definately be shown to the door...
but then.. its good enough that i turned up for work everyday ok!

that day, 1 of my AEC colleague asked me to go her place to choose gifts... yes... took many many things... tee shirts, pens with lights, radio disguised as handphone, themubdrive, bags... wooo... great deal of things man!!!

Then today.. got some gifts from their trip.
1KG of cashew nuts! 1 kg ok? dun play play!!
a tee, 1 cap, 1 laptop bag... and lotsa chewing gum from james...

die man.. juz becoz i have a bit of gums on my desk.. that people thought im a gum addict.. and they kept feeding me with gum..., honestly,,... i dun really fancy gums... but people give.. i take...
i guess there r like 10 bottles sitting on my desk now! haha! but of coz... my kind colleagues will help to finish up... me is juz like a warehouse for them to stock up..... :(

Then this morning, reached office and saw a pack of stuff lying on my desk... its a polar curry puff.... the feeling is really good.. to have breakfast lying there for me..... but i dont really know who is the kind soul..... never go investigate.... but i guess its AK... who else is so kind....
how i wish i have a secret admirer who will plant breakfast on my desk everyday... opps.... too direct!

it's been good these days.. and tomorrow is friday... lets party!!!
cough cough

p/s: have been coughing only at nites.. for few nites already.. hate it... caused me disturbed sleep... and daytime im fine... what the fish man....

scandals

this was the email title of the photos that was sent to us by my naughty boss...

and look.. he had actually taken a pic of me and my colleague from behind.. and passing it off as scandal!!!!

isnt he mad?????

he's aint crazy.. he's my boss!

(as opposed to.. he's aint heavy, he's my brother)

Saturdays......

Yes!!
Weekend here again!

How time flies huh... it feels like juz yesterday that i used this line.....

hmmm.. start with a sad sad news...
my friend's mum has passed away due to brain cancer... sigh...... hope she will rest in peace....
and every1... treasure the people around you.. and live like today is ur last day....

ok.. on a happier note... ali has been so nice to me recently!

he just came back from Athens... and he got me a present!!
in front of every1, he said : i never get any presents for u guys, except jane!
hmmm.. he gave me a very chio magnet... and he said thats the only thing he can afford there... ahhaha

Yesterday, he came over and disturbed me... he came over and said to me: so next week u will be all alone..
(coz nex week my whole dept goin for kick off trip... yes!!! NO gahmen for me! yahooo! reporting to work late,... super long lunches.... early dismissal...... for 3 whole days!!!! Yahoooo!!!)
Then i replied: dun worry... i will take care of things here!
then he said: help me look after my rubber bands ar!!
hohoho... his rubber bands... hes quite crappy huh???

Then i think i added... dont worry.. i will turn up for work 1...
then he turned to old man and said... remember to call her desk and check
wahahaha.. then i said.. dun worry... my boss already asked him to do that..... ( you see... the previous day, my boss asked old man to help him to call my desk to check that i am at work... in office... hehee)
then james asked me... u know abt the call forwarding function rite?

hehehe... am i gonna be a mia-er???

Then he saw the few bottles of chewing gum on james/mine desk... came over and eat.. then he saw my brother's brochure of corporate gifts... and he was flipping...
then i told him its my brother's... then he said... ask the guys lah! they got funding....
chris is having event.. then he call chris to order from my brother! then he said... juz ask these ah peks lah!!!
then i said.. which ah pek? here so many ah pek
then he point towards james... and chris direction.. ahhaha

then he was like so supportive.... asking them to order from my brother...

then i thrusted the brochure into chris face....
then chris said: oh.. so now im ur good friend lah?
me: yes!! u r my buddy!!!!
chris: hahahaha... this kind of people ar.......
then he looked at the brochure and said... nothing amused me

grrrrr......

anyway.... this is my brother's company www.ps1online.com.... i think the gifts look great! If any1 need any corporate gifts.... pls contact me!!!

deaths...

this morning, i witnessed a sad scene...
passed by an accident site in bt batok ( a route which i will use almost everyday). 1st i saw the lorry, then some cars... and later... i saw a white cloth...
yes.. some1 was killed in the accident. the corpse was in the middle of the road.. I guess its a pedestrian.. sigh...
i feel so sad.. life is so fragile. Any1 could just die like this... without any warning. The deceased could be some1's mum/dad/son/daughter/brother/sister, and at that point of time when they leave this world, what were their kins doing? How will they accept the fact that some1 dear to them was takened away from them?

Pls pls.. i would never want that to happen to me...or my dears....

Wonder if it's bcoz im old or what, i started to think death can happen very easily... and it's actually a blessing to be alive.. so many people die daily... due to illnesses or accidents or whatever. so we shd be glad that we are alive now...

Anyway RIP to the 1 who was takened away...

This is the 2nd time i witnessed a death on the road. But luckily, i was spared the agony of looking at the aftermath. it is already very devastating to see the covered corpse. i think i will just go crazy if i see the bloody scene..
I learnt that I am very afriad of blood... lotsa blood make my legs jellysoft
I still vividly remember the pool of blood from my papa's head... it was so freaky scary...
i remembered once i saw another road accident, and the casualty was bleeding from the head....

sigh.. sometimes... vehicles are so evil.... can we actually build something which can soften the impact?

life is short... hence should we actually just drop everything and enjoy life? or should we treasure every moment and work hard?
should we actually spend all we want, coz we never know if there is still a tomorrow for us, or should we save lotsa $ for old age?
should we live the life that we want to live, or should we put our family as priority?
you see.. life is full of dilemma... u cant just have the best of both worlds....

dont know.. juz praying to stay alive for as long as i can!

today.. in office... quite fun... coz my dept guys like abit crazy... sometimes i really love them alot... esp my boss...
he ordered a lcd monitor for himself, and surprise surprise.. he ordered 1 for me too!
when i know abt it, i was quite touched... but on 2nd thoughts.. i was thinking... shit man!!! means my screen will be more obvious to people... i cant surf my net n chat as much as i hope to. coz now im using a notebook and i always use my body to cover my screen so people cant see what i am doing...

sigh.... its not such a good move from him afterall.
then he wanted to test his projector... and he need a powepoint. then he said... what do i do without jane? i tink i will die....
yea... then he came over and use my powerpoint... -_-

and when i was about to leave, this mp came over... hes the high up guy who always come catch old man 1....
he smiled at me (surprisingly coz he always look so fierce), hence i pluck up my courage and asked: permission to go home?
wahhaa.. i know... im crappy too
then he said.... go lah... its already so late.. u shd go home at 530 what... follow ak's timing

wahahhaaa.. funny... every1 is crazy!!!!!!
well.. life is short... get as crazy as u can!!!!

take care people!

mmmm

nothing much

i hate sunday nites

i dread going work tomorrow

i am sleepy

i am very tired

i miss donuts..

check this out!!
www.jcodonuts.com

let's go batam!!

worklife balance

It's friday again! Yippeeeeeee

Well, beside the serious feeling i got yesterday, i am in pretty jovial mood... i am happy, cheerful.

Let me relate to you abt my workplace jibe...

There is this character in my office , and his name is tan ah beng.
no joke.. thats his real name. and hes some1 quite high up there... imagine my amusement when i 1st know abt this name.
Yesterday was my 1st time talking to him. he was requesting for some info and my boss shoot him to me...
then later, tis ah beng called me on my phone. his name was displayed on my caller ID. but i was at a lost. how should i answer the phone?
by rite, i will always say "hello XXXname"
but.. how shd i say?
Hello ah beng????

sound so......... lianish.....

so i juz answered: hi.. jane speaking...
to cut out all the awkwardness..... :P

hes quite funny fella too... he was requesting for my boss to help out in an urgent request. then he sort of beg my boss, and said he will buy dog food for his dog lah!

tarzan was funny too... he was in cranky mood yesterday... he had decided not to work so hard liao.. coz he said he's not appreciated.
he asked for coffee bags from my boss coz he said hes goin to fall asleep. Then this old man shouted for him to make him 1 cup too....
then this tarzan walked.. and stopped at my desk
i turned to him and said: u dont need to serve me...
tarzan: no...... i am juz thinking...... should i ask u to make coffee for us anot? since u r the only lady
me: no lah.. u go make lah... since u so freee
tarzan: how dare u say i am free! how dare u!

Then he asked: can u help me do something?
me: cannot!
tarzan: good! cannot is a very good answer... i like.... i wish i can say it also

My boss was mentioning abt worklife balance.. then he walked to my desk and cheekily said: u dont need worklife balance rite?
then i replied appearing very agitated.. who say so?????? wait i blog abt u then u know!!!

Today... what happened?
nothing much....
except this funny james... he go keep all my tidbits in the birdcage.... including my goofy and ak mickey mouse... it was such a funny sight! hahaha! i should have taken a picture of it....
imagine a bird cage with wang wang biscuit, mini toberone, wasabi peas and 1 goofish goofy and 1 silly mickey.... hehehe

and james was bitching abt how the demo to customers failed in the last stage.. he was sooo angry with the qc...
then old man added....
how pathetic! now u know what hp means.....

this is a serious blog

U must be thinking... what is this crazy woman up to again?

But it is really a SERIOUS blog..

Dont know why.. today received 2 news from 2 friends about their mothers.

Friend 1's mum went for a supposedly minor op.. but her mum doesnt seems to be reacting well.. she was in pain after the op...
sigh... hope she will recover well soon!

Friend's 2 mum... gotten cancer in her brain... and the doctor predicted a max of 3 more months.. I really feel like crying when i heard it...
Why on earth is there such an illness called cancer? It is such an evil illness... which can strike to any1 of no fault... pure luck? i mean pure suayness?

Then i start to think... i cant live a day without my mum... i really cant.. everything is so well taken care of by her...
i dont know how to cook
i dont know how to wash my clothes
i dont know how to iron my clothes

not to mention only such acts... but shes always been there for me.. i really cant imagine life without her...
but we have to face reality... 1 day, she will leave me too, when it's time.. but i really hope it wont be so soon...

So my friends, let's do what we should do today. Mother day is coming up this sunday. Pls go have a good celebration and let ur mums know that u loved her...

You never know when will be the last mother day u are spending with her... who know? this might be the last year? but of coz.. touch wood.. hope all of us will get to spend mother's day for many many more times..

Of coz, not only extended to mothers.. your fathers, brothers, sisters, cousins, and friends.. and every1! Show that you love all of them! and most importantly, you need to love yourself too!

Dont ever take any1 for granted.... Life is really fragile..

Stay alive people!

snapple i am

well, i can only say... im heading towards doomland!

i cant help but snap at my boss, my colleagues.

As you know, this mikey had been threatening about firing me.. oh well, i know hes juz kidding... but still....
he should come step on my tail when im having pms! It's unbearable u know!

just now he was chatting with tarzan, then he suddenly said: jane, now u know how important u r huh!
(I think they were discussing abt how mikey always meet his quota, without doing much. i am the woman behind his back ok....)

then i replied: ya........................... i always know that

wah... very not humble huh me? hehe...

and he was saying old man is a petty guy, and he told me thank god hes not 1... he wanna say that hes not so particular about things, and he said : lucky i am not very ji1 jiao3.
then i replied him: ji1 jiao3 is chicken feet

then later he said hes gonna hire the star resume woman (its a funny resume email which was circulating in my office), and asked me to be careful!

and i replied with the sianest voice: ok lah.. i go find other jobs liao lah

sigh... stop threatening me lah! Sometimes i can be quite emotional... when i have enough, i will just call it a day! I dont like it when he just assume that i will renew my contract. take it for granted. hello!!! I may move on ok??? I mean... quite a no of companies are conned by my hardworking & responsible exterior look. I can easily find another job ok?

But then.. theres always a risk factor to consider.... will i be pissed off by my new job, my new colleagues, new environment?

I seriously think i shouldnt study this much and now im up to my neck with the study loan.

few weeks back, i was thinking, how nice if i can just be a sales girl who sell cosmetic...
yea.. that's kinda my ambition now....

if only theres a high paying cosmetic salesgirl position...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BELOVED!!!!

Happy Birthday Sweetie!

its another bloody monday....

feeling slightly depressed... as usual lah.... and feeling stupid again...

whole day kinda in a daze.. cant think fast, cant smile brightly, can talk nicely... etc.. all the bad bad things...
it's bad huh? i suspect next time i will have post natal depression.. or what do u call that? those who got into depression after giving birth?
See!!! i cant even think of what is the term.. geez... am i such a stupid woman!

Just now, mikey threatened me...
he asked me to open a file. but my stupid old notebook is very slow.. hence he was saying: so slow! maybe i should hire a faster worker!
GRrrrrrrrrrr
Then later he sent me a 20mb file (big lor! its BIG!!!!), and then he asked me how many files is inside the file.
me: 7!
mikey: so just now how many?
me: 11
mikey: so now how many?
me: 11+7 lah!
mikey: how many lah?
me: u count yourself lah!!
mikey: another reason for me to fire you!

wahhahaa... seee...depression... + kena bullied... boy! thank god that i am still alive now!

enough of depression ...

tomorrow is my beloved ZCHEN Birthday!

Hapy birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to my dearest ZChen!
Happy Birthday to YOOOU!!!!
Muacks!!!

i hate myself

sometimes i really hate myself... the things i do.... which is so duh....

Ok... you see... my beloved's birthday is coming and there a birthday party held for him @ KL....

from the beginning, i was sooo determined to be there... rain or shine, or storm (yea.. heard there are some storming in Malaysia now) coz its my beloved birthday. I HAVE to be there!

Tried to find company to go... but... cant find.... coz its on a sunday, and will have to take leave on Monday.
Then i decided, well.. i shall go myself then!

Then friends start scaring me with horror stories... and said its unsafe for me to go there alone, which i agreed too....
i am quite clueless about KL, only been there twice and each time for less than 4 hours (i think). I do not know my way around. I will get lost. People will stalk me if they see me alone. rape? robbery? taking my life away?
Yes, every possible scenarios come into the picture and I am slightly worried too...
Plus, it's Mother's day this sunday.

I dont want my mama to get a bad mother day present. What if i am involved in accidents? what if i really die there? what if... what if???

The newspapers always report tragedies like this.... Mother: i never expect such present from my daughter. she always celebrated mother day for me without fail. to think this year, she gave me such a bad news.... blah blah blah...
get the drift?

Anyway, it finally dawned on me that ok... i think i reallly cant go. hence decided to send some presents over for my beloved... yesterday happily went to buy the presents... got a tee, a book , a birthday card and some badges which with good intentions, i wanna give to the fans who are present. its those pins with the letter "Z". got a good 18 of them....
and i even went to get the wrapping service which cost me a bloody $1! shucks! I can wrap myself and it cost nothing.. but then, i got no time. i was despo, hence had to spend the $.
Finally all are ready! It's time to go to the post office. Queued for like 10 minutes.
reached the counter, and asked the uncle.
How can I send these things over to Malaysia the fastest way?
Uncle blah blah... speedpost... he weighed my item, and it costed $35.80 to send it over.... shucks! so expensive! But then.. what to do? blame it all on me.
then i asked the uncle when can the parcel reach KL?
Uncle: I think Monday... (and he count count with his fingers, and continued) or Tuesday..
I tell you.. i feel like crying on the spot! why do such things happened!!!!
Why didnt i plan to send out the present earlier??? why am i always this last minute????

I was in a foul mood and really hate myself ...
no presents from me for him..... and i wunt be present....
when in reality, i got all my presents ready, and how i wished i can be present at the party....

sigh.....

til now, i am still comtemplating whether I should go KL anot ...
should i?
should I not???

Shouldnt human pursue their passions? paZZionZ in this sense... shouldnt we take more risks....?
well, i dont know.... i guess i will always be this lousy last minute creep....

i hate myself. period.