to hell.. and back!

past few days had been 1 of the worst in my life....

I. got. chicken. pox.

argh!!!!!!!

yes.. the painful, itchy, disgusting spots.. all over my body... and face!!! damn it...


let me regurgitate the whole story.....

on tuesday, somehow i got a running nose.. and felt so lethargic. I tot its the month of the time coming soon. Well, whats new. Hence I made myself a cup of vitamin c drink, and prepare for recovery the next day.

Next day, the running nose wasnt tat bad, and i tot.. thats it!
but somehow, i got stiff neck, my eyes were painful when i rolled them, and felt some bumps on my scalp.
What is happening to me? Something is wrong....
Coincidentally, my friend (an adult) just contacted the hand foot mouth disease. Was this it??
But i have no contact with kids leh... so not very possible.
Dengue fever? Oh yes, I remembered there was something like mosquito bite on my face. maybe its dengue....

I done a search online abt the symptoms. "pain behind the eyes" was 1 of the symptoms.
Gosh! Maybe i gotten dengue!

Then.. 1 fine moment, my friend just alerted me i might b having chicken pox?

Hmmm.... but i didnt come in touch with any chicken poxer.... but who knows....

Anyway, i was feeling rather weak, and with increasing bumps and the neck pain was bad! Nobody was in the office (they have scouted off to bali for kick off!)
I had nobody to acknowledge if the bump on my face is a pimple.
Finally, 1 colleage came and i asked her if it's a pimple. She said it looks like a pimple. Fine! I am just overreacting!

Anyway, cutting out the details, i went to the doc on thursday morning (with suspicions that I reallu have gotten chicken pox), and he confirmed it.
Damn!!
10 days of mc was pretty attractive.
I came home and announced to the whole world i got chicken pox. I wasnt feeling that bad yet. Just the itches that was killing me.

Then, after the medicine, the real ordeal came. I felt totally sick! totally weak! no energy! i could do nothing but sleep! When I open my eyes to look, my eyes was painful. I walked with a hunch, energyless. more spots appeared all over my face. i felt like dying. it was like some idiot sabotaged me into my current stage. i wanna kill whoever that joker who passed me the stupid disease! I look like a freak!

Yes, i have gotten occasional rashes, etc, but nothing as bad as this! i couldnt accept having those spots all over my face, and lips. Worse is.., i am at a high risk of having these scars permanent on my face.

But i couldnt care less. coz i dun have the energy to. i tink i was just lying next to hellgate.

tomorrow will be better, i comforted myself to sleep....

next day was equally bad. i was still dying. Plus new shit has surfaced. headache is here! the evil twin! my head was throbbing, the nerve was pulling on and off, and i felt nauseous. my gosh! migraine plus this terrible feeling. just let me die! this is horrible!!! i have no appetite for anything and when i tried to get the food into my mouth, i just have to puke out everything. i have never felt so terrible before...

it really aint fun to be sick.

during this period, i have to comment on my beloved mum who took extreme care of me. Without her, i think i would really have died. she woke up early and cooked those drinks which supposed to help me, and called all her friends to ask what food shd i eat and shd avoid. she tried to make those bland food delicious with the limited seasonings that i could eat. she tried to bring everything right before me so i dont have to move much. I really appreciate all her efforts and care she had showered me.
my mother is the best!

But guess chicken pox does make me short tempered and though I really appreciate my mum, i got impatient with her and snap at her too... and some people.

anyway, i hate chicken pox!!! and i hope the scars will not leave a permanent mark on me. I dont want any autograph pls! no bad memories.

I am so looking forward to the days when i can eat those poisonous seafood again! chili crabs, cereal crayfish, tomyam seafood






argh!!!