If Love is Blind

the heart getting heavier and heavier
the pain getting worse and worse
the frown getting more n more...
the faith getting lower and lower
it really hurts....

Now i totally understand the phrase.. love is the hardest when you like him, and yet can't tell him. it really feels terrible. pretending everything is ok, pretending i dont care about him, pretending.. and pretending...
aw.. i am now in a i-wanna-be-alone mood.. i really wish i dont have to face any1... give me few days to be alone with myself and let me think...

but impossible.. monday blues is here again... and i got tons of work waiting for me in office...
you will say its good.. keep me occupied?
but now.. i really need to think, and figure things out.. straighten my thoughts, and get my acts together again, and move on.

Was on the verge of tellin him... but i withheld myself..
impulsiveness doesnt help in any way... i dont usually do things which i am not confident of.
and the most important thing is... i don't wanna lose a friend like him.

If I step out of the whole situation and think.. its really silly... me feeling so miserable yet he knows nothing about it. he still happily live on, happy to eat his breakfast, lunch, dinner.. happy talking to his friends, happy thinking about other girls... Why am i so silly? Wat does he know! Why am i doing it all for him! why shd i be the 1 suffering, whilst he knows NOTHING about it?

If Love Is Blind - Tiffany
People say that you're no good for me
People say it constantly
I hear it said so much i repeat it in my sleep

Maybe i am just a fool for you
Maybe you're no angel too
But all that talk is cheap
When i'm alone with you

If love is blind
I'll find my way with you
Cause i can't see myself
Not in love with you
If love is blind
I'll find my way with you

All the world is crazy anyway
What's it matter what they say
If i'm the one that's wrong
Then let in be my mistake

If love is blind
I'll find my way with you
Cause i can't see myself
I'm not in love with you
If love is blind
I'll find my way with you

You wouldn't be with me tonight if i didn't feel i was right
What will it matter anyhow a hundred years from now

If love is blind
I'll find my way with you
Cause i can't see myself
I'm not in love with you
If love is blind
I'll find my way with you